[kimberley]

I hate this no one trusts me or believes me. Nothing I ever say or do is right. People treat me like a little kid but then want me to act like I'm older than I am. My friend's don't believe I care about them no matter what I do. It's midnight and I'm wondering if I have just lost a friend who means the world to me it's my fault he's gone I don't even know what I did. I want out I want to go somewhere where no one else is and just stay there forever. All I ever do is hurt those people around me I don't know what to do.

[somebodyelse]

Kimberley, why is it that no one trusts or believes you? What is it that you do that hurts those people around you? Is there some pattern that you can see in your behavior with people that pushes them away? What occurred just before your friend left last night?

I'm sorry that you're hurting, but please try not to be so hard on yourself. It's difficult for some people to maintain close relationships (for various reasons). Getting to the root of the problem is the first step in solving it. If you are in therapy, what has your t said about this problem?

[FearsomeAnna]

Kimberley,

I used to stand exactly where you are now. No one trusted me, liked me, or loved me, in my opinion. However, nothing could have been further from the truth - my severe depression was clouding my judgement to say in the least.

I know that it can be easier sometimes to push people away then to deal with the host of emotions and behaviors that come with them. I've wanted to go find a safe quiet spot myself, lately and just not come out for a bit.

What makes you think that no one trusts or likes you? Also, what happened between you and your friend?

Hang in there - I know it's tough. I'm happy you came here for help - you can't find a more loving, supportive group of people. You're safe and liked and trusted here.

some of it's magic
some of it's tragic
but i had a good life all the way......
~jimmy buffett

[demi]

hey i know where you are at cause i feel the same way to. i am new to this forum and looking for help. i have lost my family recently, and now perhaps a great friend to. everyone now i used to know avoidsme like the plague. i dont know why. i go on every day, but it is getting harder and i think i am at the end of my rope. we have to hang in there and have some hope,i think.

[Abby]

Hi Kimberly, i too know what its like to think that everyone hates you and that they are embarrassed by you. But its not true, please believe me on this one, the depression is telling you all these things. The amount of times i've wanted to go into a darkened corner and hide, or walk for a thousands years to get away from all the pain and disappointment.
I'm afraid i don't have any magic solutions although i wish to God i had, but i do understand and i'm giving you a massive hug!
Hang in there, Abby