[omofca]

Hello
I've recently been feeling very depressed for some reason. I had a fantasy. Strangely it calmed me. I'm probably not allowed to talk about it but in the end I died. And for some reason it sounds like a good ending. I've tried everything I could. It didn't work. I want to give up and die. I can't even go to war to die. That's how much of a failure I am. Anyway, I tried therapy and medication and they're not working. I have no motivation to do anything except kill myself.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by omofca

I've recently been feeling very depressed for some reason.

How recently, and can you pinpoint the reason(s)?

If that kind of fantasy calmed you, that might be an indication your mind/mood is moving in an unsafe direction.

Originally Posted by omofca

...I tried therapy and medication and they're not working.

It's important to inform your caretakers the treatments are not working.

Originally Posted by Rohag

It's important to inform your caretakers the treatments are not working.

That way - in the six to eight weeks from now when they can see you, they can prescribe some NEW meds which will take 3-8 weeks to work. So by mid-spring you MAY be a little better..............

[sans]

Hi,
I know that doesn't sound so great, but atleast there is hope!! Don't give up on yourself. You are on this site for a reason, and possibly support. Have faith and patience. Even if it's slow going, try to find something good to look forward to. I believe that you have a purpose on this earth. Everything in life is not meant to be happy and joyful. Winter can be extremely depressing. It is for me, and i try to 'hibernate' and look forward to the new life at Springtime.
Keeping good thoughts for you UM!
Sandy

[Fuzzybear]