[tillytot42]

I'm so down on myself it's just horrible. Try changing the thoughts to something more positive but it's not working. I feel pretty much invisible and worthless.
I was seeing a counsellor early this year but I didn't feel comfortable with her at all but I stuck with it,she said a few things I wasn't happy with and I felt she was judging me. The last straw was when she said I was full of self pity. Not what I expected from a counsellor. I've noticed in the six months that I last saw her I have gone downhill again but I am so nervous of trying another counsellor incase the same thing happens. Just don't know what to do. Please can someone reply as I feel awful enough as it is. Thanks.

We have to keep looking until we find a counselor we're comfortable with.

Please don't let one disappointing experience keep you from trying to find the right fit.

The good ones are out there and you'll find them if you don't give up!



ps. Please be extra patient, gentle & kind with yourself right now too!

[tillytot42]

Thank you Pfrog. I've found a place that has a few counsellors at a vastly reduced cost,my friend goes there. At the first appt you get to specify the sort of person you feel could help you. I've had various counsellors in he past and the best one by far was a lady who was just so kind and caring. Unfortunately I don't have the funds to go back to her otherwise I would. It seems someone who is nuturing seems to really help me.

[tillytot42]

Also I want to ask something how can you be kind,patient and caring to yourself when your brain just won't have it? Isn't that a major part of depression. I look after myself,I eat a healthy diet,I exercise despite having fibromyalgia but the one thing I can't do is have loving thoughts towards myself. I've had mental health problems all my life and have often been told to be kind to myself and at age 45 I still can't do it. My anxiety goes into a frenzy. All I can dois standup to it. It would be nice to have a perfect world where we were all ultra kind to ourselves but life isn't like that. I can try for sure but I just end up feeling worse.