[MollyGroove]

I really really cna't take it anymore. Nobody cares. I have not one ****ing person in the universe to talk to about anything. Whether its depressive **** or just idle chit chat. My family has never been close and always aloof. My bf doesn't understand a ****ing thing I'm going through. I don't think I he cares at all. I told him I feel like I have no one to talk to (cause he's never around) and his response is to get angry and ignore me even more. I don't even feel like I have a bf. I have a roommate that I barely see and never speaks to me. The only thing keeping me alive is the thought that I couldn't do that to my son. My sister killed herself when I was 10. It hurt a lot, but I can't imagine what it would be like for a child if their only parent killed themself. I can't die, but I want NOTHING more. I really wonder whats gonna go first. My mind or my life, cause I CAN"T do this anymore. I hope I die driving to work tonight. The roads are pretty ******... here's hoping. Fingers crossed.

[Mysterygirl202]

I care...

[tm_007]

i care for you, even if we dont know each other.

a person~

[Fuzzybear]

I care

[gayleggg]

I care, too. You have friends here that care. You are not alone.

[Insignificant other]

I care too .. I know how you feel .. it will get better. You are not alone.

I care too, you're definitely not alone

[chsandy]

me too & i feeling similar to you

[bird_lover]

I care....you are not alone....

[SeekerOfLife]

I have often felt like that myself. I am depressed and anxious every day. I hate it. But, I have hope. I get hope from wherever I can--my therapist, a friend, a chance encounter, this site. Right now it may be hard to hear this, but TODAY, be your own best friend. Take good care of yourself. Love yourself. I know it is hard. I have been there. Today, do something that you would absolutely love to do--because you need it, because you deserve it. Take some deep relaxing breaths. In your mind go to a very special place. Stay there for awhile. Take some more deep relaxing breaths. And that special place, you can go to any time you want.
Peace. God bless you.

[jiminkade]

Hi Molly..we all care about you and do not want you to take your life!!!!

Have you ever tried a crisis line and or therapy and some meds to help with the depression??? I am almost 67 now and I have tried all 3 and they helped very much.. Not sure whether is ok here but will try??? 1 800 273 TALK and 1 800 SUICIDE are the national crisis lines in the USA.. Call these numbers and call will get routed to local crisis center in your area..

If you come right out and say to them you are doing suicide now the cops and ambulance at your front door so take some care.. I have 4 or 5 really good friends that work the Seattle crisis lines..they know all of me and love me anyway..lol

The right therapist and shrink can do miracles.. You take care of yourself please..reach for some professional help

[court_1219]

Originally Posted by MollyGroove

I really really cna't take it anymore. Nobody cares. I have not one ****ing person in the universe to talk to about anything. Whether its depressive **** or just idle chit chat. My family has never been close and always aloof. My bf doesn't understand a ****ing thing I'm going through. I don't think I he cares at all. I told him I feel like I have no one to talk to (cause he's never around) and his response is to get angry and ignore me even more. I don't even feel like I have a bf. I have a roommate that I barely see and never speaks to me. The only thing keeping me alive is the thought that I couldn't do that to my son. My sister killed herself when I was 10. It hurt a lot, but I can't imagine what it would be like for a child if their only parent killed themself. I can't die, but I want NOTHING more. I really wonder whats gonna go first. My mind or my life, cause I CAN"T do this anymore. I hope I die driving to work tonight. The roads are pretty ******... here's hoping. Fingers crossed.

Your son needs you & its hard for people without depression to understand and be supportive to someone with it. It takes a very gifted hand to reach in and understand. Coming from someone who recently lost a relationship because of my depression yes it hurts and makes you feel alone but you are so far from it. So many people would be devistated including your boyfriend if something happened to you. Maybe you just need a deep breath and a helpful person to vent to. I am always here, always. Much love.