No longer here

Please stay away from me, I am a lost person and I hurt others, although I don't mean to. So from now on I will be silent, as I always should have been, and concentrate on hurting the person who should be hurt.... ME

I don't really need, and certainly don't deserve, any positive help....

I do a good enough job of hurting me by myself. And I will try not to hurt Mr Bear

Although maybe the best method not to hurt him is to go far far far away, for ever, to live, for a while, on the streets (where I belong ..) so he can find someone who is worth his love. This is dramatic, and probably out of touch with reality.... or is it.. perhaps I do deserve all the bad things I have and more. It's how I feel though. I guess I am entitled to make my own choice, whether to live or die And the moment for the decision is coming close.

It attracts the viewers. Am i merely an attention "*****"..... I don't think so. But really, I know nothing any more. I am tired of this life, so tired I would delete it all if I could I would delete all of me, with a magic wand. Flick. The bear has gone. If only if only if only if only

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Depression sure is horrible isn't it. I too go through times when I want to isolate and that I can do no good for myself let alone other people. Hang in there ))))))))FuzzyBear((((((((( (((((FuzzyBear)))))))))

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Please don't say you don't deserve to be here and be helped. Don't forget fuzzy we are here for each other during the good times and the bad times. Right now your going through a bad time. I know the feeling of not wanting to hurt Mr Bear, sometimes we hurt the people we love most but your not doing it on purpose, you are just crying out for his attention and sometimes Mr bear doesn't always understand what is happening. Don't underestimate yourself. Your an important person Fuzzy.

Love
Domino

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Sorry for the "histrionics" as my mother used to call it..... yeah maybe she was right. She did eventually say she appreciated me though......... when she was dying of cancer And I don't really blame myself for her cancer, my father (and I won't say more) caused her a lot more stress than I did. I was an exceptionally quiet, and well behaved child..... to my detriment.

I'm sure you were a sweet child Fuzzy and yes I agree with you, it's not your fault your mum had cancer. It's an ilness that can happen to anyone. Fuzzy you should just try to concentrate on yourself and try to see all the good and positive things about you. Not the negative things.

Fuzzy if you weren't a caring bear you woudn't care about hurting others, remember it's not how you percive but maybe they percieve wrong
Love
Angie

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Love,
Fuzzy

Thinking that what stress you may have caused your mother, or your dad causing her stress... imo has no reflection upon how your mother handled (or mishandled) her stress. What is stressful to one is not to the other. It's up to us to find our set point and do good self care.

(((fuzzy)))) I found you!

Thanks Sky, I think you're right ((((((((((((((( Sky ))))))))))))))

(((((((((((((((Fuzzy))))))))))))) I'm sorry you're feeling so bad. Let me know if I can help.



CB

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You're right, it's still here....... Maybe the mushrooms I am eating are magic ones

You'll get throught this, fuzzy. Take good care of yourself.--Suzy

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Oh Fuzzy,

I truly am sorry for all you are going through right now. Depression is such a tough thing and when the other person doesn't understand it, then they can make it worse and not realize it. I hope things will get better for you soon!
Sending lot's of "hugs"!!
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Linda

Thanks Suzy, arod and Boopers..... Mr Bear doesn't understand, and as he is sick himself I don't want to stress him further..... stress really seems to make his symptoms flare up

I dropped by to read some posts, and had to sign in to respond to this, Fuzzy.
I don't know if you "need" help, but I know that you deserve it. Especially the positive kind. You are a decent, valuable and deserving person.

I can see you're feeling bad, but that doesn't make you a burden. Believe me, I know what it feels like to hit a rough patch, and on top of feeling bad, to feel as if you're just a drain on those you love and who love you. But that's not true.

Mr Bear loves you and you know why? Because you're you: every little bit about you, good and even the not-so-good aspects are part of who you are, and he LOVES you! And he would know you even better than we do. Doesn't that tell you something?

You're not a burden on anybody, Fuzzybear, so don't you go anywhere. And forgive me for not abiding by your wishes, when you asked us to stay away from you.

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((((((( Fuzzy ))))))) please don't go .. you ARE a wonderful caring Bear who truly does deserves the best, you just need to see it. But i promise you that if you ask ANYONE on here, they would tell you what an amazing and thoughtful person you are. I'm sorry that things are especially rough right now ... but please go easy on yourself, and know that you have alot of people here who respect and care about you.

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Thanks hon! (((((((((((((( jacq10 )))))))))))))))