[Heather11]

It keeps getting worse. I just added a new med hoping for improvement but things keep happening in life that cause me daily setbacks. Work,family, friends- it's all a disappointment. Just when I think I've picked myself up, I feel knocked over and kicked in the gut. I just don't know where it's all leading. I keep thinking I need to do something to get back on the right path but I don't know what the first step is. I'm just overwhelmed and so disappointed in where I am in life altogether.
It's all converging and I just don't want to deal with everything. I keep thinking the worst and I know that's a terrible place to keep one's mind.
I can't find a good therapist and I am just waiting for the meds to hopefully kick in so things don't bother me as much. I keep thinking of reading more self help but I feel so unmotivated-I just don't want to think about any of it.

[Rohag]

Originally Posted by Heather11

I just added a new med hoping for improvement but things keep happening in life that cause me daily setbacks.

My impression, which is based on anecdotal evidence only, is that constant stress often limits the efficacy of antidepressant medications. You are feeling overwhelmed. Is it possible to throttle back on some your most stressful commitments for at least a little while?

Wishing you peace...

[Heather11]

Work is work and a major source of stress.. I'm a single parent. The family and friends issues just happen. I don't know what I did, or am doing wrong. I actually feel like I need to figure out how to rev up and push past everything but I'm not doing that. I feel paralyzed in my own thoughts. That's the worst.

[Sadley]

I feel like I want to say something, but then I don't know what it'd be. Well I read your post. Depression has won over me, it has taken over completely. The only thing I really do now is work and sleep. Only stopping to eat if someone forces me to. If I lived alone I'd be dead by now cause I won't eat on my own. I'm able to keep my job because I'm not required to have any social skills, which is good because I have none.

About meds, I just stopped taking all of my meds, I've tried at least 20+ different kinds of meds throughout this year, and, well all sorts of treatments and things. None of it helped me, I hope it will help you. In fact I feel a lot worse now. I constantly get lost in my head thinking or dreaming and sometimes I just don't know what to say.

I don't have any real contact with the outside world except coming onto this site from time to time. It is probably for the best, even though it causes me great pain. All I'd be is a problem to anyone. It is very hard to find the strength to go on like this.

[sewerrats]

There are no meds for life,s every day downers , things that happen wont stop happening because you take more AD,s .

[Heather11]

Another downer-- feeling excluded from family coming for a visit. It's like I don't matter or they just dont care to sped time with me. I don't get it. I don't know that I've done to alienate myself. And maybe I'm overreacting and it's not about me but still I'd rather be included with everyone

[Sadley]

I know how that feels. Whenever I'm with any of my family usually they will all be talking to each other but after several minutes I find myself just sitting there staring at a wall because I don't feel like I'm a part of my family. I definitely feel the same way about mine.

And yes, it is about you. You are yourself, so of course you want yourself to feel good, and that's ok. You can call it selfish or whatever you want but there is nothing wrong with it, it is our nature as humans.

Man, come to think of it I couldn't feel any more alienated with my family. I don't like my family at all. My whole family has severe communication issues. I swear I'm not like them, I'm the different one, but I've still sufferred for their ridiculous crap that comes with being born into such a family.

[brokenandshattered]

Originally Posted by Heather11

Work is work and a major source of stress.. I'm a single parent. The family and friends issues just happen. I don't know what I did, or am doing wrong. I actually feel like I need to figure out how to rev up and push past everything but I'm not doing that. I feel paralyzed in my own thoughts. That's the worst.

This is exactly how I feel. The only words I can describe my current state of mind is stuck and absolutely paralyzed. I want to be unstuck but am unaware how.

not sure WHY you feel the way you do. All I can say is that I hope you can find some peace within your soul.

*HUGS to you

[Rose76]

Hi, Heather. It is awful to feel paralyzed. I've been there. As far as: where to start? One place is as good as another. There is no one best way to proceed. Sometimes, even if you find a caring therapist whom you respect, it may not change much in your life.

Sounds like you need more support from caring people in your life. When family and friends don't come through for us, it certainly can be awfully disappointing and leave us feeling so bereft. I think you are have some good ideas in talking about meds, therapy, and reading some self-help literature. These are all good and can help. You make have to just wait out the really bad time of feeling awful down. Usually, for most people, it doesn't last forever. I hope things get better for you. Tell us, if they do . . . or if they don't.

[Heather11]

Feeling better over the past couple days. New med is helping to not feel so overwhelmed. I'm trying to think positive. Hopefully i can move forward and sustain. Thanks for the input.

[sewerrats]

Originally Posted by Heather11

Feeling better over the past couple days. New med is helping to not feel so overwhelmed. I'm trying to think positive. Hopefully i can move forward and sustain. Thanks for the input.

Now the holidays are over most depressives feel better , for most holidays mean change and we don't like change