[HJGS]

I guess I should say rough month. I feel like I don't belong anywhere, I'm fighting the urge to run, to just up and leave everything behind. I have the best of everything in my current situation, but there are people that are now trying to push me away from my hapiness, making me feel that I shouldn't be with the one I love. I'm tired of being treated by my friends as if I'm stupid, that I can't say or do anything right.

I can't do anything or say anything without getting *****ed at, "you should do that", "why do you do this so much", "this doesn't belong to you".

I'm tired of it.

Even if I assert myself, I'm still walked upon, and have my words turned on me and shoved back down my throat. I feel that my input and my words are of no importance anymore.

The only person that doesn't do this is my significant other <3. He wants me to talk with the person that is the major culprit behind this. The only thing is, is that talking to her is like pulling teeth, if I say my griefs, she pulls the "poor me, I'm worse off than you, you need to stop complaining so much."

This is why I feel there is no safe place for me anymore, my journal is no longer the therapy that it had originally started out to be, because if I complain, I'm immediately jumped on by those that I once considered my friends.

[Soidhonia]

Hello I hope things are going better for you at this time. Have you talked to your therapist about your concerns, it is possible that the therapist can help you with coping skills at this time, and a medicaiton adjustment if you are getting too stressed in the situation you are in at this time,. I would hate to see you disrupt your holidays because you are having such a hard time, with your environment. I hope things work out for you soon. Take care Sincerely Soidhonia

[Christina86]

(((((((((HJGS)))))))))))

I'm sorry that your friends are treating you in such a manner. That is truly sad that they do that. I'm glad that your significant other is different though - yay for you, you deserve that nice person.

I wish I could offer some advice, but I do kinda know where you're coming from.

*Hugs* Take care.

[FaithisAlive]

I have had a similar problem in the last year or so.. feeling like my friends were against me and I realized that if thats the case they are not friends....

You have to remove yourself from toxic people who stand in your way of happiness and don't have your best interest at heart.Especially if you are trying to move forward in your life and they are holding you back in some way.

There may be a way to write a letter to these people telling them what you have told us... if they are true friends then they will try to correct the problem.. if not then you can make new friends.. the kind you want to have in your life.. who can encourage you in what you do....

And.. well.. you always have us here at PC

Thinking of you.. hang in there... Faith

[Boopers]

I agree with Faith. These are truly not your friends if you are being attacked all the time. Friends, true friends don't do that.
Do you think there is alot of jealousy going on? Sounds like they may be jealous of your situation, since you have a good place and a good boyfriend. Just a thought.
I hope things will get better for you.
Linda