[Anony]

The last couple of days have been rough for me. I'm stuck in a state of nothingness. Usually when I'm down, I try hard to think of something to make me feel like I want to keep going, but lately nothing works. I can't even make myself do the littlest things. I'm afraid my mind and body is slowly starting to shut down. I don't want to sleep, I don't want to be awake, I don't want to talk, I hardly want to type this right now, but I'm forcing myself (in hopes it might make me feel better). I've been completely numb to emotional feelings lately, but today I've been fighting to hold back tears that somehow want to come out. The numbness feels awkward and wrong, but I would choose it over actual emotional pain anyday.

[Boopers]

Oh Anony,

I am so sorry. I have been there so many times. You just want to go into a closet, close the door and curl up in the corner with no one bothering you. Yes, I have been there.
Are you on any anti-depressants? Do you see a T? If no to both, you might want to think really strong about it. I have been on antidepressants for several years and I don't know where I'd be without them.
If you don't see a T, do you have a friend you can talk to? I wish I could help you.
If you don't have anyone to talk to, keep coming on here and talk to us.
I don't know if we can help much but we sure can listen!!
Take care and take it one day at a time and if you can't do that, take it moment by moment.
Pm me if you want.
Linda

please let your tears flow. it can be so cleansing and such a relief to get rid of the toxins of depression and anxiety. we're here for you and only a post or a PM away..........xoxoxo pat

[Perna]

Hope you feel better today. I would force myself outside, maybe do a little shopping of some sort, think of a single-minded purpose and go after it. Refocusing yourself, getting a little outside stimulation might perk you up some.

[Anony]

Thanks for the responses everyone. I wish I could say I'm feeling better today, but I would be a liar if I did. I'm not on any anti-depressants or seeing a therapist and sadly I don't have ANY friends to talk to (so thanks for allowing me to pour my heart out here). This may sound like an extremely foolish thing to say (so feel free to slap some sense into me) but I'm actually a little afraid to get help. I've lived the same way as I am now for most of my life. I don't know another way to be or live. I realize my current situation isn't good, but I'm afraid to change it. Has anyone felt this way before?