I am feeling totally stuck in a funk. Depressed...... I am at work and normally I would probably go off the the bathroom and do some cutting. But not even cutting has helped much lately.

I have urge to get my motorcycle out and see how fast I get it going down the highway. NOTHING is as blood pumping as doing 105mph with no hands and your eyes closed. It is the only time I feel alive.

And with ice on the roads - it will make it that much more energizing.

Today is a nice sunny day. I should leave work early and go for a ride.

Please call the hotline....

I can relate to the almost manic surge of energy/anger that's inside you right now....it's oddly like an adrenaline rush.....

But it would be over.

Please stay here. You're important here. You're valued here.
Do what you can to hang in there. Better still, hang in here....

Much love and if I can support you in any way, please PM me.

[Frankbtl]

Hi UM, I know lame alternative but really want you to be safe so......maybe real good workout at the gym or is there anything else that gets the blood pumping a bit (other than cutting!) that gets the blood pumping.
Just to give you something temporary and some more space to work on things underlying how you're feeling if you just really need a bit of a fix??
And if you want any support, here for you......
Alison

Never mind on this idea...........

I did not realize the air temp is something like ten below. Not possible to get bike out today.... Maybe this weekend will be warmer.

[Frankbtl]

Hi, yes, TOOOOO COLDDDDDD!!!!!
But still your safety is the real thing/the only thing so if you want to talk a bit more about what's going on for you, we're here, we care and if we can help at all in anyway.................
Alison

Thank you Alison. I appreciate you trying to help. You are a sweet person.

[gayleggg]

I, too, am at work and am depressed and bored. I would like to leave work and go get drunk, but my common sense kicks in and makes me not do that. Not good with the meds I'm on. But I can dream.

Hope you can find a safer way to let you feelings out. Sophiesmom is right you are important here. I care and so do a lot of others.

[Fuzzybear]

UM

[Rohag]

How are you feeling today, UM?

i do not know. sorry if that sounds stupid - but I really do not know how I am feeling.

[Frankbtl]

Originally Posted by Useless Me

i do not know. sorry if that sounds stupid - but I really do not know how I am feeling.

Hi UM (or ComfortingSoul!! )
No that's not stupid at all (!!) sometimes everything has taken so much out of you that there isn't a lot to pin anything on, or sometimes there's so many conflicting things going on that it's hard to find a base (or it's "shutdown").
While there's nothing really predominant there though perhaps you can see that as a "blankish" canvas, so maybe use as much control as you can to start overriding things and start pulling on what you'd like to be pulling on as much as possible, and the strength within you.Try and make that canvas into what you want it to be.
Alison