New To This and Scared

I just ran across this site today and decided to give it a shot. Today was a bad day for me. I have suffered from depression since I was little and now I'm 21. I actually just realized I need to get help and am seeing a therapist twice a week and am taking zoloft. I live on my own and don't really talk to my family. My co-workers are like family and are trying to help me through this but I end up just getting frustrated with them cuz they just don't understand. They keep telling me to just stop dwelling on the bad things and to just get over it. They don't get it. I have this feeling of hopelessness and just keep thinking what is the point anymore. I have just been staying locked up in my apartment. I don't want to see people when I'm like this but at the same time I am longing for social support. I am so tired of putting on the act and happy face in front of people. I can't do it anymore. I'm not ok and I don't know how to get through this. After reading a few postings, I realized that I am not alone. It is just so hard when the people around you don't understand what you are going to and don't know how to help. It makes me feel really crazy. Anyway, I am just going to try to sleep this away, like I have been doing.

hi, stina..........i'm sorry that you're having a hard time right now. it happens to all of us at one time or another. it's difficult for others to realize what is actually going on when we are depressed or anxious, etc.

i think you'll be very comfortable here. as you have noticed, we all have our ups and downs and there's a lot of support here for that.

post as much as you can as the more you post, the more support you'll receive..........xoxxo pat

Hi, you sound so much like me right now. Except for the fact I'm much older. But isolate myself also, but long for people to reach out to me and offer support. I guess I'm hoping they won't give up and will try to coax me out of this state I'm in. No, people don't get it. Don't bother trying to explain your depression symptoms to people that are not depressed, you will end up frustrated and hurt. I have stopped sharing with people. It just makes things worse for me anyway. I feel like there is no point also. Don't quite no what the answer is either. I am on meds, just started today and I'm told it could take 6 months or more to feel any better. I don't know if I have 6 months patience. I really have just about had it. It is scary to be going through this and have no support. I am going to start seeing a counselor. Right now I don't work so I see nobody except a bf who is barely home. I think its helpful for you to be at work, you are getting out and being around people. But they are not professionals. Seek help with a professional therapist. Look in the yellow pages or online under mental health services for your area. It may just help. Don't let it get to the point where you are not able to even function like me. I have really fallen and don't know how to get myself back up. Don't let it get to that point, please. Hope you will consider what I said. Take Care. Bree Marie

Ok, I read too fast and didn't realize that you are seeing a therapist and on meds. In that case i don't know what to say. Just try to hang in there and keep your appointments. Continue posting also. I'm in the same boat.

Hi stina,
I'm sorry you're going through a tough time. It actually sounds very similar to my situation. I've been dealing with my depression since I was little as well (I'm 22 now). Hang in there and hopefully your "up days" are strong enough to carry you through your "down days". If you ever need someone to talk to, please feel free to pm me.

Hi Stina,

Wow, first, I want to welcome you to this forum. You picked a great bunch of people who visit regularly.
Second, I want to say how sorry I am that you are fighting depression at the moment. Boy, do I know what you are talking about. I started getting depression when I was 14. I am now 52. That's a long time. The only thing I can tell you is that it does get better. But, you probably already know this. And, I am proud of you for doing all the right things. Seeing a T and taking anti-depressants. I do hope they will work for you. It takes a couple of weeks to feel the difference and sometimes you have to try different ones but hopefully, with the right one, you will start to come out of this deep hole.
As much as your co-workers want to help, the truth is, they don't know how. Unless, you have had depression, and I mean real depression, IMO, I don't think a person can help another who is depressed. They don't know what it's like.
I hope you continue to see your T and I hope that soon, you will start to feel better.
In the meantime, keep coming on here just to talk, vent or just for a hug. We will be here for you.

Linda

Hey and welcome to PC...where you will be understood...I hope you find the support you are looking for ...