[bazzinga1990]

i dont want to feel this way anymore i dont see the light anymore, i cant be strong anymore. i just cant do this any more. i give up i just cant fight anymore when i dont know what im fighting for anymore. ..........

Cheers....

[bazzinga1990]

Originally Posted by Useless Me

Cheers....

cheer my friend

I will stick to coke. booze and me right now would be a dangerous combination.

[Frankbtl]

Hi bazzinga, no-one is going to be able to be strong and fight all the time. And the effort you're putting in is way out there!!
But for the times you just need a rest from the fighting, from the being strong, you feel you've got nothing left to give, you've forgotten what you were even fighting for, remember we're here for you, we're here to listen. to care, to support you. You don't have to do it on your own.
Alison

[ToeJam]

Originally Posted by Useless Me

I will stick to coke. booze and me right now would be a dangerous combination.

Got to admit, I completely agree with this... and that's coming from someone that would binge drink at the weekends.

Reminds me somewhat of a Homer Simpson quote (tangent plane, vroooooom) "mmmm beer... the cure and cause of all lifes problems"

But yes, as a depressant, alchohol can compound the severity of our depression sadly.

You say you're not strong... but you really are... you've survived to now despite depression... despite the insipidness that makes us think things are futile.

Yes times are going to be bad... but there will also be respite if you just ride out the storm

If you aren't seeing a T, I'd really recommend looking into it... and speaking to your dr too... there is help if you just reach for it

Originally Posted by bazzinga1990

i dont want to feel this way anymore i dont see the light anymore, i cant be strong anymore. i just cant do this any more. i give up i just cant fight anymore when i dont know what im fighting for anymore. .......... bye everyone thanks for trying to help me.

Hey... Bazzinga... stop this right now!!! You know what John Paul Jones said: "Surrender, hell! I have not yet begun to fight!" Put down that glass and step away from the bottle. Now repeat after me: "I am light, I am strong, I can achieve whatever I put my mind to."

"No matter how far you've stumbled down the wrong path... turn back"!!!



P.S. Listen to your crazy old uncle...

hang in there bazz. we love ya

[regretful]

I sure know that feeling...I've been thinking about doing the same thing for the past 100 + days. Not sure how I've held on this long without alcohol, and not sure that I want to much longer either. Good luck.

[Hellion]

Maybe this is controversial but I see nothing wrong with getting drunk on occasion...but on occasion. I've never been addicted to alcohol but I've had periods where I was drinking every day and essentially abusing alcohol, well that got old after a few mishaps...but never drinking again wasn't what I wanted(I kind of have a passion for trying different beers from various microbreweries) so now I just drink sometimes...and much of the time its a couple beers nothing too extreme.

[regretful]

Originally Posted by Hellion

Maybe this is controversial but I see nothing wrong with getting drunk on occasion...but on occasion. I've never been addicted to alcohol but I've had periods where I was drinking every day and essentially abusing alcohol, well that got old after a few mishaps...but never drinking again wasn't what I wanted(I kind of have a passion for trying different beers from various microbreweries) so now I just drink sometimes...and much of the time its a couple beers nothing too extreme.

I don't see that as controversial...sounds a lot like me. Though I haven't had a beer/drink in over 100 days, I'm thinking about a couple of good beers this weekend.

You didn't come right out and state you are contemplating suicide, but it certainly sounds that way to me, and medications mixed with alcohol can be deadly.

I hope you will take a moment to put the bottle down and call your doctor or the local ER or a suicide hotline and talk with someone about this.

It would be a pity for you to do something you can't undo!

Besides ... If you kill yourself there will be a hole in the Universe where you are supposed to be and that will be a very sad thing!

[Hellion]

Originally Posted by regretful

I don't see that as controversial...sounds a lot like me. Though I haven't had a beer/drink in over 100 days, I'm thinking about a couple of good beers this weekend.

Yeah I guess its not really that controversial...but yeah sometimes it seems mental health professionals have biases about that kind of thing...like normal minimal to moderate use being the same thing as abuse, it just gets confusing sometimes. But I don't see harm in having a drink...just in moderation is good.

Originally Posted by Hellion

Maybe this is controversial but I see nothing wrong with getting drunk on occasion...but on occasion. I've never been addicted to alcohol but I've had periods where I was drinking every day and essentially abusing alcohol, well that got old after a few mishaps...but never drinking again wasn't what I wanted(I kind of have a passion for trying different beers from various microbreweries) so now I just drink sometimes...and much of the time its a couple beers nothing too extreme.

It's not the drinking per se that is the issue here. It's the tone of Bazzinga's post with the goodbye at the end plus the fact that she's not sampling a couple of beers, she's getting drunk because she can't stand the pain anymore... plus the fact that large quantities of alcohol, mixed with psych med's is trouble regardless of one's reason for drinking.

If a person is in a good space physically and mentally, there is nothing wrong with having a drink.

However, this person is obviously NOT in a good place mentally and encouraging them to drink could very well prove lethal to them.

Akin to offering them a loaded gun ...

So I'm really kind of aghast that some people feel it's okay to post here that it's okay for them to drink when in fact IT IS NOT in this particular instance!

Sincerely,
Pfrog!

Where are you, Bazzinga?

[Altered Moment]

I am a recovering alcoholic so it is not ok for me to drink. But when I was drinking I drank a whole lot for many years got very drunk many many times. I was self medicating. Not so much for depression but just to relieve the stress of life so I would not get depressed. To be honest it worked for a long time until it didn't work anymore. It never acted in me as a depressant unless-

If I was really depressed to begin with and I tried to drink to relieve it it only make me much more depressed. I used it to cope with life and usually didn't drink when depressed but when I did it certainly did not work and made me much more depressed and much more likely to do something stupid. In fact one time I did. I got in my truck, drove to the foot hills, drinking the whole time, and started going around corners as fast as I could until finally I went over a big enbankment. I landed on all four tires between two trees and was only a little bruised. I was subconsciously looking for a different result.

So in Bazz's state of mind I don't think it is a good idea for her to drink. If she is very depressed chances are it will make it worse and lower her inhibitions to do something stupid. If it is just anxiety she is going through then it may work just fine and bring relief. I don't like how she ended her post either.

[Maria38Divine]

Bazzinga where are you going, girl???!!! If you're not feeling strong, that's okay. Being strong all the time can be exhausting. Rest a little. If you're tired of fighting and trying to figure out what's going on with your brain, no problem. Just rest. If you're logging out from PC indefinitely, well, I don't know about that. We love you too much to allow you to ride off into the sunset alone. Keep checking in.

Bazz....

Come and say hi now.

[GenCat]

I use to drink and mix meds, I thought it was fun to play with my life that way. ITS NOT. If you are suicidal, seek somewhere that can help you, like the hospital. Always be on the safe side and if you don't trust yourself with your own life then seek treatment. Keep us posted please.

[Hellion]

Originally Posted by The Skeezyks

It's not the drinking per se that is the issue here. It's the tone of Bazzinga's post with the goodbye at the end plus the fact that she's not sampling a couple of beers, she's getting drunk because she can't stand the pain anymore... plus the fact that large quantities of alcohol, mixed with psych med's is trouble regardless of one's reason for drinking.

Well i am certainly no mind reader....I just know why I drink and how I've drank and figured it might be relevent to this thread. I certainly hope the OP is not putting themselves in danger...but at the same time I can understand having a couple to a few drinks after a stressfull day so naturally I don't find that concerning per say....Perhaps I am missing something but I am not encouraging binge drinking just the idea getting drunk every once in a while is not nessisarily a terrible thing.

[live2ski66]

Hey Bazzinga...
You know what my astrologer says. If you terminate your contract with this existence before it's supposed to be over, you have to come back and go through every little misery again until you make it through the contract.

I don't know about you, but my current existence is far from pleasant. As much as I dislike it and want to end things, I'll be damn if I have to go through all this pain and misery again! I'm going yo grit my teeth and give it my all to make it through.

[Altered Moment]

Oh bazz, give us an update.

[Altered Moment]

What is going on Bazz. Talk to us.

Bazz?

I know you are in a tough space right now, but it's not nice to post stuff like this and then ignore those who are showing concern for you.

Sincerely,
Pfrog!