[bazzinga1990]

thursday the 13th i tried to comment suicide i overdosed on my own meds an washed them down with alcohol. being that i was still awake i told my parents as soon as they got home from work cause i regretted doing what i just did. they took me to a hospital but did not have to pump my stomach cause i had already thrown up some pills, did have a huge panic attack there but when i ws better i decided on my own to admit myself into the psych ward hospital. it was scary the first night and i felt so alone but by the next day i felt better and more sane by each day i was there.


well, im still here. and glad i am. depression and anxiety will always be what i deal with but will never define me, who i am. im going to keep up with my youtube hobbies and other new hobbies.




I used to be scared


I'm not sacred anymore

I have a reason to be here

[paynful]

I'm so glad you are doing well. I'm sure it wasn't easy, but your new outlook sounds very promising.

[Maria38Divine]

Phew!! Well, praise the Lord!!

Good to have you back, Bazzinga. I'm glad you're okay now.

I'm so happy you're back and feeling better

Keep going strong!

[live2ski66]

So glad you are doing better and were able to get help. Sounds like your parents are very understanding.

[atomicc]

It's amazing that you are okay and have a new outlook ! Sometimes hitting rock bottom is what saves us, but I hope you never have to go there again.

[Frankbtl]

WOW Ashley, SO, SO, SO, SO glad you're OK!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And telling your parents.......and admitting yourself.........that must have taken so much strength and courage!!!!!!! You should be SO proud of yourself!!!!!!!!!!!!
Alison

[GenCat]

Yay! So glad to hear of your good news! Glad you are alive and well! You are an inspiration to others! Keep thinking positive and you'll go far!

[gayleggg]

So glad you are okay and feeling better. Thank goodness your parents came home when they did and you were able to talk to them. It's amazing what a little time and thought can do to give us hope. Glad you are well.

I am glad you are okay. Truly I am. AND part of me would like to kick you right in the butt too for doing that without reaching out to us for help.

[littlemiss44]

It's good that you reached out for help when you did. The hospital is exactly where you can get the help that you need. Glad to hear yr doing better. I'm glad yr here too

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[Mysterygirl202]

Hello love! Just wanted to say I am so happy for you new out look and that you are still here with us. Message me sometime! I just posted some of my practical ways i'm fighting depression. We could give each other tips!

[SeekerOfLife]

Bazzinga!!! You gave me a scare when I started to read your post! I am so glad you are ok and back home. You have friends here. Reach out when you are in that much pain. Please!

[Pierro]

Bravo Bazz, well done you.

[LadyShadow]

So glad you're still with us! I'm happy you're doing better, but remember when you are feeling low like that you could always reach out to us for help

[bazzinga1990]

Originally Posted by seekersinking

Bazzinga!!! You gave me a scare when I started to read your post! I am so glad you are ok and back home. You have friends here. Reach out when you are in that much pain. Please!

I'm sorry I didn't mean too in feeling better now just dealing with depression and not cutting or drinking it's hard

~Ashley~

[Frankbtl]

Hi Ashley, welcome back!! But there's no "just" in dealing with depression!!
It is what it is, so really glad that you're managing a bit better but remember we're here for you in this!!
You have us to lean on, you have us to support you when you need it, as well!! I know it can be really hard sometimes but you're not on your own, we care!!
So if...whenever....you want to talk (more) about things.............
Alison

Welcome back, Bazz... SO PLEASED you made it through!!! Gigantic HUGS! See you on YouTube!

Glad you made it ... And, I'm sorry I came down on you in the other thread for not keeping us posted ... Talk about a Duh! moment on my part!

I'm glad you were where you could get help and hope that you will always reach out for help should it ever happen again because like I said before ...

There would be a hole in this universe where you're supposed to be and that would be a very sad thing!

[bazzinga1990]

there is a new update video up now on my youtube channel to see if you want to see how things are going for me and stuff. im doing a depression journey sort of thing i'm doing for myself and you guys to see also and if you guys have a youtube and would like to do the same thing too that would be awesome and we could all check up on eachother. so heres the video here

you can also check out my other videos to cause there not all on depression. oh and you can subscribe to my channel if you want to know when i post new videos, i will be posting updates everyday and sometimes post a surprise video too so ya check it out.

[bazzinga1990]

Originally Posted by Pfrog

Glad you made it ... And, I'm sorry I came down on you in the other thread for not keeping us posted ... Talk about a Duh! moment on my part!

I'm glad you were where you could get help and hope that you will always reach out for help should it ever happen again because like I said before ...

There would be a hole in this universe where you're supposed to be and that would be a very sad thing!

thanks so much and im happy to be here with you guys too. and thanks for caring so much

[bazzinga1990]

thank you all for the love and support you have shown to me in this small amount of time spent getting to know all you awesome and incredible people and i am VERY fortunate to know each and every one of you.

love you guys

[Altered Moment]

attagirl

[Frankbtl]

Hi Ashley, SUCH a BRAVE video to make!! Remember you're not alone!!! We/I care, we/I hear you!!
Never be afraid in sharing what you're going through, it matters, it's important, you have been through/are going through so much and you deserve support!!
And I hope you're reading in that, that you should not be disappointed in yourself too!!
If things take time (which they will!) allow yourself that, how could anyone expect you to just snap back into..........???!!!
It's OK, it's going to take time, AND you should be really proud of yourself, and what you've overcome so far and so should your parents be really proud of you. Everyone should be still caring about you so much regardless, you matter!!
And definitely see it as a good thing that you're going to be getting more help as well. You're right it is going to be a journey to feeling better, but it's not you that is the problem/broken/in need of fixing it's a whole lot more about helping you have the coping resources to overcome the obstacles you're already working on overcoming.
There's nothing wrong with you, it's more the depression in your way, and with the right support you are going to be able to make strides, it might take time but.........
And you know, we're really privileged if we can offer you just a little of the support you need in this......so don't hesitate for a moment in speaking out whenever!! You know that we/I will try to be there for you in anyway you need.
Here for you
Alison

[bazzinga1990]

Originally Posted by Frankbtl

Hi Ashley, SUCH a BRAVE video to make!! Remember you're not alone!!! We/I care, we/I hear you!!
Never be afraid in sharing what you're going through, it matters, it's important, you have been through/are going through so much and you deserve support!!
And I hope you're reading in that, that you should not be disappointed in yourself too!!
If things take time (which they will!) allow yourself that, how could anyone expect you to just snap back into..........???!!!
It's OK, it's going to take time, AND you should be really proud of yourself, and what you've overcome so far and so should your parents be really proud of you. Everyone should be still caring about you so much regardless, you matter!!
And definitely see it as a good thing that you're going to be getting more help as well. You're right it is going to be a journey to feeling better, but it's not you that is the problem/broken/in need of fixing it's a whole lot more about helping you have the coping resources to overcome the obstacles you're already working on overcoming.
There's nothing wrong with you, it's more the depression in your way, and with the right support you are going to be able to make strides, it might take time but.........
And you know, we're really privileged if we can offer you just a little of the support you need in this......so don't hesitate for a moment in speaking out whenever!! You know that we/I will try to be there for you in anyway you need.
Here for you
Alison

thanks so much for your continued support my friend