[ToeJam]

Went to see my Dr today as over the past 2 weeks I’ve begun to have some rather nasty slides once more. They haven’t been consistent, but when they’ve happened they’ve been intense. Was worried that the tablets might not be having the effect they had.

I wouldn’t say he was dismissive (he’s actually a really nice guy), but on hearing that things have been up and down… and at that time (this morning) I was pretty calm, lucid and I guess ‘ok’, he had no concern. Said that dips will happen and that at this time I should continue as is and keep taking the tablets.

Regardless of pretty strong suicide ideation (I’m using I think ‘mindfullness’ and the elastic band technique to ride it out) which I told him… that was that.

As the day has gone on, I’ve been restless and gittery (not sure if it’s a trigger of the morning or just more of the same everyday) and a tad disenchanted… alone.

He wants to see me again in 3 weeks (rather than 2months which was the original plan a few times ago).

I don’t like wasting other peoples time.. and so it’s bothered me.

[Nammu]

I'm sure he doesn't think of it as wasting his time. He may have not adjusted your med's at this time but he definitely want to keep a closer eye on the situation. In 3 weeks if it is still rocky he might change things then. It's your illness that is telling you those things, you are worth it.

[gayleggg]

Sounds like seeing him sooner is a good idea considering things have been up and down. Then maybe he can make a better treatment decision. It's not you're taking up his time as it is him being cautious, which is a good thing.

[Frankbtl]

Hi ToeJam, you are not wasting his time at all!! That's one of the reasons he is there!! And you/your feelings are important!! And if that were to involve going back to him twice a week, that's what you'd need to do!!
I can understand how you may have felt disheartened, a bit hopeless. lost (??) though. But if as you say he's a nice guy maybe something just got a bit lost in communication somewhere along the way.
Perhaps he felt that you'd got a real control on the suicide ideation, you were moving away from it.........with the methods you're using?? And missing the important issue that they are still there, and maybe how real it is?? Perhaps he didn't realise how down the downs were or how much it was effecting you that they were still there??
I'd say make another appointment for before three weeks and make sure you're really graphic with how things are for you, even write them down before hand to give you something to go off in case he leads the conversation elsewhere (even unknowingly).
And question him if you're not entirely sure of why he's going the direction he's going. It's you who's at the center of the appointments remember so it's about you working together to get things right for you.....so he shouldn't mind you wanting to know about the what/when's and why's at all. And then he might be able to explain things a bit clearer e.g. he might not want you taking more medication than you might need due to side effects........he might want to be testing which medication might be right for you with the lower doses, as there will be an upper prescribing dosage he might not want to up it that quickly as it won't give him as much scope to up it even more if he feels you really need it.........
And you know with that much more input from you he might think again and change what he's doing/planning.
It is good that he's seeing you need to be seen sooner than usual- in three weeks- he obviously sees that there is some room for concern. So it probably isn't going to shock him if you ask to see him even sooner than that.
So remember, it's you first, right!! How you're feeling matters!!
Alison

I will say that I am adamantly opposed to seeking psychiatric help from a GP. P-docs are far more educated and trained than GP's are. I would never trust a GP to prescribe psych meds.

[Altered Moment]

Originally Posted by Sister Rags

I will say that I am adamantly opposed to seeking psychiatric help from a GP. P-docs are far more educated and trained than GP's are. I would never trust a GP to prescribe psych meds.

TJ is in the UK. That is how it works there.

[ToeJam]

...

Met up with the wife after work. She had planned that we would go to the cinema. Got into town and all energy just vanished. Just ended up standing still in complete lack lustre mode... She's good and stood in front of me trying to get me to talk which I kinda did but it was decided we'd just go home.

Right now I'm beyond feeling much of anything... Will just go bed.