[Tangerine87]

How much do you tell your therapist about your suicidal thoughts ?
Just curious . Lately I've been trusting mine too much and sometimes it's a little scary because I know any day he can just break confidentiality. I'm also feeling really rough. If I didn't have any guilt I wud have killed myself. Sometimes I wonder will they understand ? I can think of a million reasons why my life sucks.

Ahhh. It's a frightening idea isn't it? I actually don't tell my therapist much about it at all. I'm very vague when it comes to things of that nature and usually say things like "it was a bad weekend" and leave it that. My therapist doesn't push and I doubt I'd specify exactly what kind of thoughts I have. Because when it comes down to it, if I end up deciding to give up my right to life, I won't be doing it with the hope of someone stopping me. I'll do it because I've really stopped hoping and I don't want anyone to get in my way.

Usually though my therapist and I discuss more things along the vein of dealing with things that are coming up and if it isn't a very hectic week (which is pretty much every week) we discuss my triggers and how better to deal with problems. Personally I don't think dwelling on my negative thoughts are key to my movement upward. It doesn't really feel therapeutic to me and I personally don't think it's productive for me. We talk about techniques on rationalizing thoughts and that's enough.

I have told her once or twice and I feel embarrassed so I rarely tell her now, She was understanding and supportive.

[greentires4me]

I've told them a million times but since they say they have hear it before its like its not obvious anymore....I planned mine down to how I want my celebration of life I made the letter and everything. But yeah something we shouldn't be talking about there is something about it at the top.

[dandylin]

Generally. Only generally. It's sad that there is no one we can truly be honest with

[sabby]

((((((((((( greentires4me )))))))))))))))

I'm sorry you are struggling so much right now. Please know you are in my thoughts and I hope you will find all the strength you need to carry on as best you can.

I just wanted to let you know that you can discuss suicidal ideation here. Many folks deal with it on a daily basis. I, myself have been there before many many years ago.

What is not allowed here is stating that you are going to do it, how you are going to do it, and the like. That gets to be much too triggery for folks since we can't do anything to help you online and it's so hard to see someone in that space.

I hope that makes sense to you. Please take some time to do some searching on this whole site for resources for when you are feeling this way. Here's a link that may help get you started:

Suicide Helpline

Please take good care of yourself. Keep reaching out, keep talking to us okay? We're listening and we do care!

Gentle *hugs*
sabby