[Teddy:)]

I feel completely stuck! It doesn't matter which way I look I can't seem to find a way out. I feel like my life has become so unknown to me, I have plotted along for so long telling myself that its ok, when it's not! I am struggling to find my purpose in life, I don't like where I am or who I am, nothing is enjoyable anymore. I find it hard to manage the basics aspects of life. My world feels like it is slowly crumbling around me and I have no way of stopping it.

I can feel my body slowly caving in with all the pressure. Trying to remain on the outside as all together is becoming impossible. My emotions are piling up, but I can't seem to release them, at times I get this huge wave of despair hit me and I panic because I feel like I am going to meltdown.
It is beginning to filter into every aspect of my life, it is impacting my work which scares me, this is the one place where I have always had control, but not anymore, the pressures are becoming too much, I can't do it anymore, I just want to quit life and find a nice quiet place to hide, where I am free from all the struggles.

[pegasus]

I know that feeling well ((((((( Teddy )))))) But you know things never stay that low forever, when you hit rock bottom, you have to start rising up again. Hang on to that thought.

[Rose76]

Sounds like you are having a hard time. I know it feels like life in general is overwhelming, but most likely some particular problem/disappointment has come along and acted like the straw on the camel's back. Try to think what that might be.

I think most of us who get to feeling like you do (and I have) are lacking in having a good source of moral support. If there is someone in your life that you can talk to, try to reach out. If not, it's hard to do a lot about that when you feel as bad as you do.

There might be something major in your life that needs to be changed. Ask yourself what things in your life could you possibly change. Maybe you need to take a couple days off from work. I know that doesn't solve major problems, but it can give you a break that you may really need.

We all feel best when we have some sort of a long range plan for ourselves that we believe in. Coming up with that can be powerful hard to do, but you've probably done it before.

I hope you feel better. It's hard to feel so awfully weighed down. Keep posting about how this is going for you.

[greentires4me]

Feeling stuck is like walking around in moon shoes stuck in mud, you can bounce but you can't move because the mud is holding you in.

have you gone to some kind of yoga or tai chi..? just it allows you to get rid of bent up emotions. I like tai chi its like the balancing of emotions to energy and allowing it to flow through. Plus you don't have to stare at someone else's butt like yoga makes ya do at least that is what happened to me I couldn't focus on my breath because someone else's butt was in my laugh circle plus I was like those yoga pants sure don't fit her and then I was a distraction to the class so I was asked to leave. But I got my laughter out of it and decided i needed something less distractions.

anyway enough breath, and breathing.

doing what works for you and striving on what is the best thing for you no matter what kind of suggestions any of us give you.

We all need a holiday for "ME" book 3 days off from work and travel to some place magical some place you may have never been before and do everything for "ME" because thats what kind of holiday its to rest, recoup, and relax. then when you come back you should feel rested and rejuvenated ready to restart your life up again with new found sense of you. You can do it I believe in you!!!

[Nammu]

You are not alone. There's many here who experienced the same thing. It does get hard, but that is what PC is for, to share and know that others here understand.

[losinghope]

We are all right here with you. I know exactly how you feel. It feels like I am about to spin totally out of control, and have no way to slow it down. The one place I feel together is school, and I feel like I'm losing it there, too. So I understand how you feel about it impacting your work. Hang in there. Just take it minute by minute.