[hardknocklife4me]

And I'm not talking about weight loss. Well it's me again and the downward sprial known as my life. Long story short so I don't bore you. I bought a used car for 2800 tested it, got my dad to look at it who's a mechanic and it checked out so we thought. The day I pick the car up 2 major malfunctions. Now I'm stuck with it and can't even sell it.

Been to several car dealerships and they say me filing bankruptcy two years ago was a kiss of death for me. And I'm already out of 2800 bucks and they want me to come up with more cash to get a newer used car. I'm drowning in my rent and utilities and still with no rilable car.

My family finds this funny and I'm trying my best to stay positive but to no avail. I'm getting doors slammed in my face and all I'm trying to do is stay afloat and get ahead. I'm starting to go back to those old thoughts, I can't do anything right and why am I even here. I try to do the best I can and live right and all I seem to get is screwed. I feel exactly like Michael Douglas in the movie Falling Down. Life hates me and I see it now. And being depressed makes it worse

[LaborIntensive]

[hardknocklife4me]

Originally Posted by LaborIntensive

Trying seems to be all I know how to do with no success. My dad calls me "that boy" as if I have no name and that I'm stupid, dumb, or crazy and don't know what I'm doing. And oddly enough my mom agrees at times. So much for support. I just want to throw in the towel because I feel destined to lose. Every avenue turns out to be wrong and I'm starting to get that trapped/stuck feeling and when I do I start getting low and angry

[Rohag]

Hardknocklife4me, during your active service in the Corps were you able to maintain a "healthy distance" from your negative family? Could you build or rebuild a healthy distance?

If you were diagnosed upon separation, that sounds officially service-connected to me. Have you turned to the VA?

[Fuzzybear]

[gayleggg]

I'm sorry your car turned out to be a bummer. Your dad shouldn't laugh, since he looked at it to. It's not your fault. Buying used cars is difficult at best. I don't think that makes you a failure be any means. You just got ripped off. It can happen to any of us. Having things like this happen to us when we are depressed even seems worse. Take a step back and gather your strength. You can make it through this.

[hardknocklife4me]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Hardknocklife4me, during your active service in the Corps were you able to maintain a "healthy distance" from your negative family? Could you build or rebuild a healthy distance?

If you were diagnosed upon separation, that sounds officially service-connected to me. Have you turned to the VA?

I wasn't officially diagnosed until I got out that's what sucks about trying to go to the VA, yet another thing I did wrong in waiting to deal with my depression

[hardknocklife4me]

Originally Posted by gayleggg

I'm sorry your car turned out to be a bummer. Your dad shouldn't laugh, since he looked at it to. It's not your fault. Buying used cars is difficult at best. I don't think that makes you a failure be any means. You just got ripped off. It can happen to any of us. Having things like this happen to us when we are depressed even seems worse. Take a step back and gather your strength. You can make it through this.

Yeah having depression then dealing with set backs such as this doesn't help, when finances just aren't there to buy the things you need, a stressful work environment, and severely negative family (I don't live with them).

I come from a famy of 4 boys I'm the youngest and I'm closest to my oldest brother who just so happens to be diagnosed and dealing with major depression. But he goes in and our of speaking because of his disorder so I can't talk to him, my other brothers could care less, my parents well that's not a good idea. And my therapist I can't seem to reach her anymore for an appointment. So all these things I've started to isolate myself all over again. Dating isn't an options all the ladies I seem to attract are judgemental if they find out about my depression. Friends well lets just say people TRY but don't succeed, to use me.

So all in all this aids in me feeling like my life is a waste and I'm a loser. I've been ripped off on a car, a motorcycle, a laptop PC, and even in my hobby and you guys might find odd. I'm an avid target shooter and gun owner. I've even been ripped off on that aspect. Plus my apartment is killing me on utilities and I've tried moving 3 times with no luck because I don't make enough to upgrade. It's like when will it end.

[hardknocklife4me]

Why is it when you're depressed stupid things say to you tend to offend you???