[pacots]

I am in that deep dark hole of depression again. I hate everything & nothing means anything to me. I barely eat I do not sleep right either. I get myself out of bed but feel like a robot just doing the actions. I do not want to go in the hospital again, I was just there one month ago. I feel like I can barely go on. I see my doc on tues. Does anyone think I can overcome this without the hospital? I am very holy & have been praying that god lifts this burden from me.

[Nammu]

Do you have a therapist or any other support outside of your doc and the hospital?

[Stronger]

You're an overcomer! Stay in the fight till the final round, cause God is holding you right now. you might be down for a moment, feeling like it's hopeless...but that's when he reminds you: you're an overcomer!!
I can relate with almost everything you're saying, I was just in the hospital 4 months ago.
I keep screaming out to God telling him that I'm tired of all this, I just want him to take it all away. But he keeps reminding me of that verse that says "my power works best in weakness".
I want you to listen to a song, mija. "Where you begin" by Mandisa. It's an incredible song!

Stay strong, my dear. You will make it! I believe in you.

Hi pacots. I'm sorry you're hurting. I'm in a deep, dark depression too, which started last August. I was inpatient because of suicidal ideation about 6 weeks ago (I think). Unfortunately, it did not help my depression whatsoever. It was just a place to stay safe. If you feel hospitalization helped you last time, I would say give it another whirl. Regardless, good luck with whatever you decide to do, and keep posting.

[Fuzzybear]

[pacots]

just got out of the hospital & feeling the same way severly depressed. Every med was tried now they are pushing ect on me & i will not do it. I think i will be living the rest of my life like this. See how much longer I can go on, when nothing matters.

[konstargirl]

I'm so sorry. Hope you got some help though like a therapist.

[mikeysmom322]

Im sorry. I have been in the hospital too and it really sucks. I hope you can maybe try out new meds with the doctor. God is with you just be patient. There are beautiful things that will come to you, just hang in there and keep me posted about how your feeling.

[regretful]

Like others that have written, hospitalization did little for me other than make me realize that I did not need to be there. I was inpatient for 7 days (late Dec through early Jan), and was simply warehoused. Five months elapses, and I have decided that depression will only get better with lifestyle changes. Medication helped me get "over the hump"; I'm still depressed, but am making small changes in the hopes that I'll one day return to the ranks of the "non-depressed". I'll continue to pray for you.