I really want to die

Yeah...getting help is though on it's own for many. I remember the first 3 years of depression I refused to go to a doctor or therapist even if I knew I reeally needed it.

My suggestion is that you take help from a friend in seeking proffessional help. In the end it will be you going there but having someone you trust know this and can ask you about it and in general emotionally support you can be the extra push you need. But ofc that requires a friend you trust and can handle it... :/

Anyway.. it took me 6-8 years before I REALLY got proffesional help. Hope that won't happen to you...or already has. Hang in there..

It is really, really, really tough for me to get help. I'm not even sure if I'll ever get help, because if I do go through with it, I wouldn't get help .

Telling my friends, that will not happen, they don't understand it.

I also wish something would happen ,& I would die. Without me doing anything. That would be really nice.

It really sucks, that they don't ask. I wish more people would be aware of depression,& also not be so judgmental. All of my friends are judgmental angling depression. Why are they so sad. Get over it. That's not a big deal.

They seem ok,& don't get sad much. There happy,& have fun

I still want to tell my teacher. But , I don't want to overwhelm him, or be a burden to him . But my depression is getting overwhelming,& I contemplated suicide. But he seems to be the only one who understands depression,& knows you just can't get over it. I don't get why he's the only info who understands.

Maybe I am misinterpreting what you are saying, but it sounds like you are not telling people (irl). So just how do you expect other people to understand if you do not let them know how you are feeling?

Gods blessings to you kiddo..... you need them.

I meant generally about depression. Not me personally. Just in general.

fair enough foxy.....

I just hope when you are in that bad place....... that you please reach out. Honestly - it is tragic when young people quit life. Simply heartbreaking to the rest of us old farts

The replies from before

I don't think I can now.

Although... you just did make a post here. It might not be much.. but it is something.

I have difficulties determine whether this means you are suicidal or not. If you are.. well.... here's a suicide hotline... if not today you might need it another day..hopefully not though...

1-800-273-TALK (8255)

This is a list of suicide hotlines in different states in the USA..

Suicide Hotlines - Suicide.org!

I post this simply cause I care.. I wish you well