[sorrel]

hi all. I've been away for a while.

I have (Complex) PTSD-linked recurring depression.

I seem to be having a kind of episode the past week or so.

All I want to do is curl up under the duvet and sleep. I make it out to do the things I have to do. But. I came home early from work today (had finished all my work, I have lots of leave left, and the heating's broken...)and slept most of the afternoon.

I'm pre-menstrual as well, which isn't helping.

I've not had this sleeping all the time before. With all my previous episodes, I've had insomnia. But the 'wanting to hide' is a recurring feeling.

But, I just need the rest. Its a therapy break. I start back next Monday. I've been working really hard in therapy. I have to work all the time, every moment, because I suffer from quite severe dissociation also (have just got to the roots of some of that...a big relief....) and need to keep communicating inside to keep myself on track.

I'm so tired. I feel so heavy. Slightly weepy, but not deeply depressed in a way that I can feel. Sad, yes... Tired, yes.

Can anyone else relate?

[silver_queen]

((((((((((( sorrel ))))))))))

I understand that. In some of my past depressions I had the same sleepiness... it doesn't really help because it takes needed time out of the day, but it feels like your body physically needs it. I'm sorry it's happening to you because it makes things all the harder. It sounds like you're accepting it and not pushing yourself too hard, which is good. Maybe just try to keep a healthy balanced lifestyle and sleep as much as you feel you need, and see how things turn out.

[jacq10]

((((((((((((Sorrel))))))))))))

I hear you .... hope things improve .

[Boopers]

Oh Sorrel,

I have been there so many times. Depression can bring you down faster than anything. There have been times where I have had weeks of closing the curtains, locking the doors, turning off the phones and staying in bed. I didn't want to talk to anyone or even see anyone.
I am on two different anti-depressants and it helps me alot.
I wish you all the luck in getting this turned around. It's hard but can be done.
Good luck,
Linda

[sorrel]

Thanks for understanding, everyone.

I made it to work today. Needn't have bothered, really. Because there is very little work right now. I feel really insecure then, like I'm not needed. AND I told people how important it is for me to have plenty to do.

I slept all afternoon yesterday. I guess I needed it.