Tired and sick of this

I'm so sleepy. All the time. It doesn't matter if I sleep under (deprivation) or over (excess) or just the proper amount ... I'm always tired. Never physical, always in my head.

I just want to be able to sleep properly and not go through my whole day feeling like a zombie. That's how I was over the holiday, barely able to stay awake for 6 hours at a time without sleeping.

I need to be able to feel something anything more than I am right now. I don't know if my mood is artificially inflated when I'm around my friends or not but I can't stand being like this.

What's the point.

I'm so sick of stresses and stressing myself out and my body hating me and hating myself and being self-destructive or feeling the need to be. I just want to feel better.

You'd think I was asking for a miracle.

Sorry I'm just being mopey. Sorry I'm being so pessimistic. Sorry I'm wasting everyone's time ...

I'm sorry that I'm me.

Hey! You aren't wasting anyone's time...... you're such a great support around here and I care about you lots! You're great just the way you are! I'm not sure what the answer is to a constant feeling of tiredness...... let me know if you come up with anything

((((((((((((((( Christina )))))))))))))))))

Love,
Fuzzy

Christina can't support anyone. Better for me to go crawl under a rock because I'm useless.

The tiredness only comes when I'm feel depressed so I know that when I'm no longer quite as miserable I'll feel better (tiredness-wise) but I'm really sick of waiting.

I don't want to screw up my entire semester of classes and my life and not be able to function ... and it's getting that bad.

Thanks for saying all those nice things Fuzzy. Maybe when I don't feel so awful I'll try to believe them since I think they're probably true.

((((((((((((((Fuzzy))))))))))))))))))

No one can be supportive all the time.... I'm sure you know that too! You're welcome to share my cave, its more comfy than crawling under a rock

((((((((((((((((( Christina ))))))))))))))))

you're funny Thanks Fuzzy. I know i'm just being mopey but I really hate being like this ... especially after my T appt today.

(((((((((Fuzzy)))))))))))

(((((((((((((((christina)))))))))))))))))))) You are definitely not wasting anyones time. I am so sorry that you are feeling so bad.

Thanks ((((((((((bb))))))))) but I think I probably am.



Maybe I'll be less mopey in the morning.

(((((((((((((((christina))))))))))))))

Please don't appologize for being you. YOU are an amazing and caring person, maybe you don't see it right now, but thats what i'm here for! You my friend can get through this ... and as far as the support part goes, no one, NO one, can be able to be able to support anyone all of the time. Take some "christina" time .. do what you enjoy, hang out with the people who make you happy ...but most importantly, believe that you can do this. And i'm sure i speak for the people on PC when i say that we are here for you. I am here for you. anytime - all you have to do is dial a couple numbers ... or write a couple words, and i'm here for you. No one should have to go through this alone.

Thanks ((((((((((Jacq))))))))))) as always

I just like trying to help and when I can't be useful I feel disgusting.

Look here young lady! We all looove you! Why???
Because you are YOU! You're a sweet loving person with a deep thinking mind. You are a VERY supportive member of PC! I don't know how many times you've helped me, along the way!!!!
Your thoughts putting you down... are not telling the truth.

(((((((((((((( Christina )))))))))))))))

Thanks (((((((((Nina)))))))))))) I'm trying but the thoughts are winning. bah humbug

Thanks

((((((((Christina))))))) You are one of the most supportive people I know. As everybody else has said, let US support YOU for a change! It's OK. You don't have to be "on" all the time.



Love, Candy

I just feel so awful not being able to help. Part of my personality I guess.

Thanks ((((((((((((((((((Candy))))))))))))))))))

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{[cander}}}}}}}}}}}}}} I know exactly what you mean, and I feel for you hon~
Hang in there~

thanks ((((((((biplol))))))))))

Hope you're feeling a bit better today Canders

I know how you feel about tiredness although mine is a bit different, if I sleep a lot, I'm massively tired for a few days and if I'm sleeping 3 or 4 hours a night I feel like I don't need any sleep at all, it changes for me every few days and its exhausting mentally.

Hope things get better for you soon!

Not doing any better, but thanks ((((((((polkadotpixie))))))))