[TheOriginalMe]

I need a break from all of this, why does one trouble have to pile on top of another and another? We all have our limits and I wish I could reach mine as enduring and carrying on despite the never ending crap is painful beyond belief.

I've had to reduce the dose I'm taking of Cymbalta. 60mg wasn't doing much for me and 30mg is like a band aid on a broken leg, pointless.

I'm bleeding heavily and am anaemic, the med for the bleeding is aggravating my depression, as is being anaemic. Balancing the cost - benefit of this med would be tricky if my mental health was stable, but as it isn't stable the best I can say is I'm between a rock and a hard place.

I can't face the humiliation of another mh assessment where I will be told to stop heaping misery on myself and that I'm not bad enough to see a shrink.

Please let it all end soon, I'm so scared that things can only go on getting worse, why am I being punished like this?

Hello OriginalMe: Your situation sounds so difficult! I've been on 120 mg. of Cymbalta for about 2 years now. (I switched over to the generic variety earlier this year.) Both the name brand med & the generic variety have been about the same for me. Neither is wonderful. But they do seem to have kept a floor underneath me. So even though I get low, I seem to bounce back before I hit bottom.

I don't know anything about how the health care system works in the U.K. It must be very frustrating to go through those assessments you mention & then have them tell you you're not ill enough to see a psychiatrist. All I can say is: hang in there & keep posting on PC. Hopefully it helps.

[TheOriginalMe]

Originally Posted by The Skeezyks

Hello OriginalMe: Your situation sounds so difficult! I've been on 120 mg. of Cymbalta for about 2 years now. (I switched over to the generic variety earlier this year.) Both the name brand med & the generic variety have been about the same for me. Neither is wonderful. But they do seem to have kept a floor underneath me. So even though I get low, I seem to bounce back before I hit bottom.

I don't know anything about how the health care system works in the U.K. It must be very frustrating to go through those assessments you mention & then have them tell you you're not ill enough to see a psychiatrist. All I can say is: hang in there & keep posting on PC. Hopefully it helps.

I like the way you describe Cymbalta like a floor that stops you dropping any further. The 60mg was more like a rug that got pulled away from under my feet when I went back down to 30mg.

The good news is that the steroids have stopped the bleeding but I need to take them for another 9 days and my skin has already broken out, my mood is suicidal and generally I want to murder the whole planet for daring to breathe.

I'm consumed by a fear that I can't get better and that no one cares about me. I'm back in the old place where I'm starting to believe I'm dead and in Hell. I did something wrong and this is my eternal punishment.

Unfortunately I have no words, just hugs

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Originally Posted by TheOriginalMe

I'm consumed by a fear that I can't get better and that no one cares about me. I'm back in the old place where I'm starting to believe I'm dead and in Hell. I did something wrong and this is my eternal punishment.

OMG! I wrote a post on PC a while back: "Immortal Me" where I wrote that I am immortal & that it is my punishment. I also often fear that I can never get any better & that, as long as I don't cause trouble, no one really cares. It sounds like we have sort-of similar perspectives...

[Fuzzybear]

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(sorry I only have hugs)