I cant handle this anymore

Been a couple of month strugling with my depression.. Trying to get back on my feet and not to end my life.. But today im at the lowest point of my life.

Problems just cant stop stacking in my life.. And today my land lord giving me a final warning to pay my rent and i got less than 48 hours.. And if i cant pay the 600usd ill be sleeping on the street.. And i still cant get a job cause they mostly just wana hire a fresh graduated young people or people with high profile!!! Not to mention how i cant get someone to help me out.. I got nobody and no one even care bout me!!!

And so here i am feeling so low and disgusting with my own life!!! Im so freaking done!!!

how else where you paying your rent before?
No family to help you out?

more questions then answers I see.

I'd help you out but I just don't have the money to do so, but my couch is open for 28 days

I paid using my savings before.. But im running out of it

Also ive been on my own since im 15 with no one willing to care bout me

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Hi vantonius, it sounds like you're going through a really rough time right now.
Re: the housing situation. Do you think you could negotiate with your landlord or is there anyone who might help you out with the rent? But if it comes to it are there any family/friends you could temporarily move in with? I'm afraid I don't know much about your area but......homeless shelters if there are any if.............? and sorry but I'm just "reciting" this from elsewhere but maybe if you tried some churches as apparently some can help if.....
I know it would probably still be really hard if you did lose your home but anything would be something, right?
As for jobs, I know that can be really hard, anywhere. And sometimes it can just come down to apply, apply, apply...................but maybe you can pick up some tips about filling in application forms, CV's, interviews online, anything that might help if only a little.
As for people who care though, you have got that one "sorted" at least!! If you want to talk more about what's going on for you and how you're feeling there will be some great people on here who can identify with the pain, emptiness, hopelessness.........depression can leave you feeling, people who can offer you understanding/empathize, and people who can support you with/through this. So stay with us, you're not alone, and in time things can get a bit better.
Alison

I am so sorry you are having such a hard time. I pray you find a job soon. Jobs aren't all that easy to find here either. Do you know of anyone who would be willing to let you stay with them temporarily? Any family at all? I know you are in a bad spot, and sometimes so many problems are hard to handle. Stay with us and post here. We care about you.

Thank u for all the suggestion and concern.. Here in my area.. Theres no such thing of a shelter for free.. And theres no church that i know of giving people a place to stay..

Also no fam will help.. Cause if they do.. I wont even have an experience sleeping on the street when i was a teenage ( u can read about that on my first ever thread in this forum a couple months ago )

Thats why i really really feel so low, tired, angry and disgusting with my life.. Like im just running around on this stupid endless missery road my whole life

I don't know how to find your first forum, but you seem like a strong person who had to deal with a lot at a young age. I can't help you physically, but give you online support and prayer that something good will happen your way.

I'm sorry I can't give advice or tell you how to fix it. But if you ever want to talk or need a hug I can do that. You've been through a lot so you have to be a pretty strong person.

This is my first thread describing my life in a short words... http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...-so-badly.html
Im just tired of everything and everything seems to get even worst as time goes by.. Im done fighting or you can say i dont know what else to do.

Im trying to be strong cause i hate giving up.. But im tired of trying to make everything better when the fact is.. it gets better in just a short time but then it gets worst big time for a long long time

I had a lot going on too that I was almost homeless without job. My friend took me in but I used almost all my money to get here. I don't know anyone but her. I'm grateful she took me in, but without her, I don't know where I would be at. But there seems to be trade off for decisions.

Well i only got some for food right now and i doubt it will even stand for a month.. but no more.. for other things..

Oh btw i forgot to include the link to my first thread on my earlier reply.. i already edit it but here it is.. http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...-so-badly.html