[maymie]

I'm not sure if I posted in the right place. Sorry if I didn't.
My depression has a major hold on me. I'm not sure how to get out of the hole I'm in. It scares me how bad I am. I either sleep all the time or not at all. I cry at the drop of a hat or I anger quickly.
I have always dealt with depression. It's something I fight every day but when I got a divorce almost 2 years ago my world crumbled. I sunk into a hole that I couldn't climb out of. I moved home with my mom and her boyfriend and closer to my family, which was a huge mistake. I stay because I don't have the money to move but it hasn't helped my depression in the least. In their eyes I'm a screw up, black sheep. Nothing I do is right.
There are so many things I'm trying to teach myself, cooking, cleaning, mowing the lawn, riding a bike, crocheting, saving money, being more outgoing. These are things that were never taught to me but are also things that make me stupid or the black sheep for not knowing how to do. I know it isn't all my parents fault because I'm an adult and should know these things but a little help or guidance would be helpful. These things are things that don't help my depression, they are all things I get made fun of for, called stupid for, or whatever. The harder I try to learn the more I'm made fun of. They want me to learn but yet they don't. I am constantly saying I'm sorry because I feel like I'm never enough or doing it right.
I'm still single and that is yet another reason I'm ridiculed. They call me the old maid, the cat lady, the dog lady, even though I'm 29.
My depression is bad and they don't care. They continually tell me to just feel better.
I am currently looking for a counselor in my area but haven't found one. I'm not sure where to look. Any help would be greatly appreciated.

They don't sound very encouraging or understanding or kind or etc... in fact they sound like jerks. Some people like to put others down in order to feel superior and better about themselves. Usually these types of people really don't have such high self-esteem (even if they act like they do) - otherwise they wouldn't feel compelled to insult others in order to feel good about themselves.

Try to ignore their BS and just do your thing... I'm sorry, I know that makes it sound like it's easy but I know it's not. But try not to let them get to you and try to only apologize when it's really warranted and keep your head up!!

You can definitely find a counselor online with some google searches. It would probably be really helpful for you. Here are some sites for therapist searches - I don't know how good each of them are but you can surely find someone with one of them:
Find a Therapist, Psychologist, Counselor - Psychology Today
Find a Therapist Near You | Find a Therapist in Your Area | Local Therapy or Counseling Services
Psychologist Locator - Welcome / Text Search

[HonestlyMe35]

Originally Posted by maymie

I'm not sure if I posted in the right place. Sorry if I didn't.
My depression has a major hold on me. I'm not sure how to get out of the hole I'm in. It scares me how bad I am. I either sleep all the time or not at all. I cry at the drop of a hat or I anger quickly.
I have always dealt with depression. It's something I fight every day but when I got a divorce almost 2 years ago my world crumbled. I sunk into a hole that I couldn't climb out of. I moved home with my mom and her boyfriend and closer to my family, which was a huge mistake. I stay because I don't have the money to move but it hasn't helped my depression in the least. In their eyes I'm a screw up, black sheep. Nothing I do is right.
There are so many things I'm trying to teach myself, cooking, cleaning, mowing the lawn, riding a bike, crocheting, saving money, being more outgoing. These are things that were never taught to me but are also things that make me stupid or the black sheep for not knowing how to do. I know it isn't all my parents fault because I'm an adult and should know these things but a little help or guidance would be helpful. These things are things that don't help my depression, they are all things I get made fun of for, called stupid for, or whatever. The harder I try to learn the more I'm made fun of. They want me to learn but yet they don't. I am constantly saying I'm sorry because I feel like I'm never enough or doing it right.
I'm still single and that is yet another reason I'm ridiculed. They call me the old maid, the cat lady, the dog lady, even though I'm 29.
My depression is bad and they don't care. They continually tell me to just feel better.
I am currently looking for a counselor in my area but haven't found one. I'm not sure where to look. Any help would be greatly appreciated.

We are very similar so know that you are not alone! I am in the process of a divorce that has been going on for over 3.5 years and have been forced to live back home with my mom due to frankly being broke. I am not welcome here and can not wait till I can move out on my own. Anyway, first thing I would suggest is gathering a support system. This site is helpful but I suggest a counselor; ask friends/ family for suggestions or just do a Google search for your area (I did). Do not feel ashamed for your feelings. Many people feel this way and you can get help! I suggest moving out asap and creating your own positive space with positive people. I just joined a depression support group filled with positive supportive people who know exactly how I feel and they never call me stupid. I Googled that too! Be proactive. You may not be able to control your thoughts but you can control your actions. You are after all an adult. Get yourself help. Get yourself a positive support group. You can do it, I know you can! Good luck!

[Bigmike727]

Hi, I can relate to what you describe, except it was in a workplace. I was always continually picked on and laughed at for every little mistake. Anyways long story short, I got out of that oppressive environment. About a counselor, your GP (General Practitioner, your everyday doctor) may be able to help you out in finding one, atleast thats how I met my first therapist and psychiatrist. Anyways, I wish you the best.