[az_tc91]

my last post was just the other day but today isn't any better. all I want to to is run and disappear, just to get away from my chaotic life in which is just slowly driving me insane. I have shut out people and I chose to keep it that way because I feel anything I touch, dies. I just want to wake up tomorrow happy but I know I won't. I need a break soon or I honestly have no clue what I'm going to do...

[waterknob1234]

I know how you feel. I have had times I just wanted to hide in a cave somewhere and get away from it all. Are you on any medications? Have you seen a medical doc, psychiatrist or therapist? These are things that may be worth looking into. I understand looking at daily pain and suffering, wondering what the next day may bring is hard. Hang in there. You can post to us, we love you and we understand. You can message me anytime you like.

[Idiot17]

Well said....anything you touch, dies. I know the feeling....hang in there.

[DogTired]

I've spent months feeling exactly the same way. Waiting to get into therapy at this point. For whatever reason, I've found that when the "one day at a time" seems pointless because feeling depressed and sad is just an inevitability tomorrow and forever, thinking in terms of "one hour at a time" or even "one minute at a time" (when things are REALLY bad) helps me steady myself a tiny bit. Even if I still feel depressed in the present moment, it takes thinking about the future more and more out of the picture, which reduces the feeling of dread I guess. Have you seen a therapist for this? Hang in there. I hope you find some relief soon.