Pretend

running on three hours asleep. Crying hysterically for almost three hours, snapping, letting everything just boil over. Get up the next morning and pretend like i wasn't crying all alone in the dark, fake a smile and show the world "I'm fine" but define okay? I have been facing this hell for 8 years now and nothing has come out of it, except sleepless night, nightmares, and scars on my skin. Almost ran away, quite a few times, couldn't deal with all. Going for a walk at night all alone, not knowing where to go, just following where my feet take me, as i stumble along in pain

Can relate to the world of pretending and feeling no change will ever occur. Sending hugs your way.....(((((sprinterchic)))))

I relate to the crying alone in the dark. ((((((Hug))))))
I am crying in public now too, I just seem to cry wherever I am. No one ever notices or if they do they just walk on by.
You don't have to pretend here or fake a smile, just be yourself, we're here.

You aren't the only one pretending. I do too even though a lot of people around me already know I use anti-depressant meds. Hugs