[shamon86]

I was doing fine minding my own business and everything when WHAM! I hit a wall today. I feel so low and hopeless it came out of no where. What happened? I wasn't feeling great but I wasn't feeling this low either. Right now it's like I'm never going to be happy again. I'm so tierd of this.

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[Jess113]

wow that's so odd the same thing happened to me yesterday. I suddenly felt like I had no future and my life was over, even though I was happy only hours earlier. And nothing really happened to make me feel so miserable. I ended up crying myself to a restless sleep, then woke up in the morning and was irritable and pretty much mad at everyone. I help with a kids' ministry program and I went to church with the kids I help with and they made me feel better. Do I feel really happy? No. But I don't feel as miserable.
I guess all I'm saying is get out and try to do something and give it some time.
Hope this helps!!

[Pierro]

was there any trigger today ?

[depressedalaskan]

(((shamon86))) I just went though this last week. I have a thought in my mind but can't get it to paper. I am still a little confused from my own episode. I know how tired you are. Know that you are not alone. And that we all care.

[shamon86]

No. I woke up this way. I just talked to my therapist. She recommended I take a shower and go back to bed. Try to press the reset button so to speak.

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[Frankbtl]

Hi shamon, really hoping that will help. Sometimes it can appear from nowhere, but that doesn't mean it has to stay.
Perhaps your T is thinking that you cope with/manage/handle so much (sometimes without realizing it) through the days, that it can come down to your mind telling you "enough's, enough!" and you just need time to rest, recuperate, "regroup".
So go easy on yourself, and if there's anything more you can do for you in general e.g. reduce the pace, give yourself more time to rest or do things you might enjoy, then go for it!!
But if you want to talk, as you maybe already know, there are plenty of people on here who will understand what you're going through, and who can offer you some support.
Alison

[depressedalaskan]

I want to say detour depression or something like that. Last week depression had me consumed. Depression had me just where it wanted me. I didn't want to fight anymore. I just wanted it to end. But I knew what depression was trying to do to me. I had been there before. With all I had left I fought back. I got out of the house and went to my clinic. Just so I wouldn't be alone. My depression wants me to be alone, it is so much stronger when there is no interference. My clinic has a public puzzle to work on so I sat and worked on it for a few hours. People were in and out and asking me how I was doing. I couldn't tell anyone the true my depression kept me from saying how I felt. I was sitting there balling inside. Tears in my left eye. Not sure why only one eye. LOL But I was hurting. My chest was very heavy, my thought was kinda closed and my head pounded. But I sat there, a little chit chat and haft the puzzle later I was able to leave and be alone. So I think I detoured depression. Not sure if this makes any sense. I am still a little confused. Just thought I would share.

[waggiedog]

Hello and please please DO keep sharing, for many of us here most certainly DO KNOW exactly what you go through and what you will go through. It's very easy for people who've never really experienced true depression to understand you (us). People seem to think that being 'fed~up' is the same as being depressed, how wrong they are. Depression is NOT something you can simply shrug off and change your mind by telling yourself to perk up . I mean, if it were that easy we'd all be doing it wouldn't we? I can also be doing OK yet wake up one morning with a feeling of doom and gloom, not knowing where it came from. Sometimes I can shake myself and somehow shift my mood upwards, but in a long depressive spell it's not possible. Thanks for sharing . XXXXXXXXX

[Mustkeepjob32]

I have a hard time getting to sleep at night and then when I wake up I am like "oh no not again." The stress of starting a new day is almost too much for me sometimes.
I'm sorry you're feeling this way. Keep posting.

[shamon86]

Thanks everyone for the replies. Some days I don't ever think I'll feel better. The physical and mental fatigue is more then I can take.

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[Frankbtl]

Hi shamon, sometimes it can be about taking it one day at a time. Not easy,I know but..............And you know you have moved on from it before, you can do that. OK, it might take some time but at least you know that, right? So just keep doing what you can (whatever that is) without putting pressure on yourself. And if you just want to "let out" just how hard it is for you, we're here for you.
Alison

Shamon, I had exactly the same experience however right slam in the middle of an internship at uni,

I just remember something changing and something being triggered, coping with depression heavily before I thought everything had turned around and I was just another statistic of young people who deal with it short term. Nope. I have just finished uni, 23, and struggled all the way through for the most part without a diagnosis of multiple things I may have, mainly chemical imbalances. Many people think that recovery is quick if you force yourself into situations and it really doesnt work like that, so yeah, like you, im now stuck in a rut, wanting to move on but i just can't and still don't know why.
I thought my story would give you support to know that others are going through similar.

tc xx Fem