[kittydag18]

This morning I woke up and immediately felt terrible. I ate breakfast, but didn't do anything else all day. I just sat here on the couch and stared at the wall. Whenever I heard something I would start to freak out, then it would fade and I would continue to stare at the wall. I feel completely worthless and empty. I don't know what to do anymore.

I have an appointment with my therapist set up, but I'm absolutely terrified that something is going to change with my depression before then. I can't go to the hospital, it makes everything worse. I start to shake uncontrollably and become unresponsive.

I hate my live so much right now.

[sunflowerseeds]

I'm sorry to hear that you are having such a rough time today. Some days I wake and feel the same as you are. Its really tough but remember that you are not alone! Did something happen today or yesterday that made today so hard for you?

[kittydag18]

Originally Posted by sunflowerseeds

I'm sorry to hear that you are having such a rough time today. Some days I wake and feel the same as you are. Its really tough but remember that you are not alone! Did something happen today or yesterday that made today so hard for you?

Not really. I've been feeling pretty bad for quite a while.

I just wanted to stop by a give you some hugs!

[waterknob1234]

I understand how you feel. Sometimes I have panic attacks that are actually worse in the mornings. Wish I had something better to tell you but you are not alone.

oh those days where you are only existing and not living.... feeling more dead than alive. I think those may be the worst.

HUGS of support to you. I hope you got some good rest last night and you look at today as a little bit better. And remember - PACKER football starts soon - maybe that will give you one thing to smile about.?.?.?

[Frankbtl]

Hi Kitty, I'm really sorry you're feeling/you've been feeling that way and I know sometimes it can all seem/feel impossible to overcome/like there's no way out even if you had the energy to begin with to try to look for a way out. But sometimes if nothing else, it can be about finding the slightest of cracks and trying as hard as you can to zoom in on them............and right there you've said you feel worthless. Well even if it's hard to believe/feel you're not worthless. Guaranteed there is something about you that makes you not worthless!! Believe me!!!
Whether those are your achievements (however much you may be dismissing them now!!), some your experiences, something about you, things you've said/things you've done........there's going to be something and probably somethings from all of those and more.
And I'll tell you what I'll kick it off. You're posting on here about how you're feeling, well that shows you have some real fight, some real strength in there somewhere. Despite how you're feeling you're putting it out here for understanding/support, right?? So you're one step ahead of this already, even if it doesn't really feel that much like it, right now.
And you're worth all the help you can get, including all the help we can give you.
And otherwise/in general, is there anything, any little thing you can do even for half an hour (or less!!) that might be able to take you just a small step away from the way you're feeling? It may seem pointless right now, but if gradually, slowly, over time you can add things on/make them longer??? I know things don't just turn around, just like that, but anything that might help just a little for now. One step at a time.
And try to use any support out there?? Whether you can bring your appointment with your T forward, whether hotlines/crisis lines are an option, and you know we're here for you!!
Things can get better, maybe not easily but.............
Alison

[Fuzzybear]

[regretful]

Sure do hope that this gets even a little bit better for you...depression is one tough cookie, so like others that have said above, I send care and concern through this virtual community...