What to do if I want to die?

How well I know this, seawhale ... I've worked in a few toxic work environments in my lifetime, and it can definitely impact our mental health BIG TIME!

Whenever I find myself in an intolerable work environment now, I make myself a smaller target by avoiding and/or ignoring the toxic people I work with while I actively look for another job. As soon as I have secured another job, I tender my notice and get the heck outta Dodge!

It's customary to work out a two week notice in most places, but I've found that a toxic work environment will let you go as soon as you tender your notice! That can be a blessing and a curse.

It's a blessing because it gives you a couple of weeks to get your mental health in a good place before reporting to the new job, but it can also be a curse if you are unlucky enough to be living paycheck to paycheck.

Hello again Seawhale u cant let this insignificant person win. If u didnt work there/ with this person calculate how much less despairing you would feel. Alot less. I know that my workplace increases my depressed state, elongating its episode considerably. It helps me to find 'answers' it really helps to read up. I felt so much better to read about things pertaining to my situation: nepotism. bullying. passive aggressives. Toxic workpkaces. It cant stop it it can give you some explanation of what is happening there.

Its so hard to come home and forget how sad u have been made to feel. I try to distract myself for about an hour and after that the weight of the day is not as bad. Cook slowly and carefully? Play a computer game? Read an absorbing book? Just to kick start your down time. Or get on here and pour your day out to folks here.