psych was concerned

I am feeling sooo down - feel like my brain is commanding my body to do things, but my body can't move... have been obsessing about death-related things. really not doing well. was actually scared that my psychologist would commit me, but i decided to omit facts so that wouldn't happen.. i'm scared of myself - don't know how to get out of this...

Hello Ouch sorry you are having a hard time at this time. I wish you would call your Dr and let them know what is happening, if you need help it is okay to get the help you need, we have all been where you are, Help is just getting the help you need to go on with your life, until you are safe. I feel the best thing to do is let the Dr make the decision in what you need to do for yourself since you need help at this time. Take care Soidhonia

I agree Ouch. You need help. The doctor can put you on something that will make you feel better.
You can't give up. Keep fighting the fight.
Let us know how you are doing. Please?
I'm worried about you.
Hugs,
Linda

I would tell the truth about what you are experiencing so your psych can help you. I've had docs "suggest" I go into the hospital, but I refused after seeing my mother in & out of mental instituitions when I was growing up. A trip to the hospital would mean I was as bad off as she was. I already identified with her too much, to the detriment of my self esteem. I also witness some of the horrors of the hospital (this was in the 60's & 70's so I'm sure they are much improved). Plus she had ECT & was scaring me cuz she didn't know who I was.

I really think you need to tell the whole truth to you doc in order to get help.--Suzy

Hello I am just concerned and wanted to say hello, and let you know that I hope that things go well with you and you feel better soon. Take care Soidhonia

Thanks for caring.... I seem to be on an emotional rollercoaster - from obsessing about how to kill myself, to being just fine and cleaning my house (which I had definately been neglecting). I don't know if I have been constantly on the go because I'm scared that the next day I won't feel able to do anything, or if it's actually something else.

Weird. I am not really understanding myself. I went from being extremely suicidal to happy... there has been no difference in terms of events. I'm really scared of falling again - I don't feel too much in control. I made plans for tomorrow and Sat. because I have been in such a good mood - but part of me is scared, because if I feel like I have been feeling - I won't want to meet anyone. It's the first weekend in a LONG time that I have actually taken an initiative to see pple.
I don't understand what's going on!
But, I'm still here... somehow I have kept myself somewhat together... if you can call it 'together'

Do you have a dx? If so, it seems you should be on some medication with the suicidal thoughts & with the mood swings.--Suzy

My diagnosis was major depressive episode, but my GP just said that maybe I'm bipolar (with hypomania) but I haven't gotten the official diagnosis of that yet (she said she needed to talk to me and ask me questions from a questionnaire).

I was originally treated for depression & was later found out to be bp. My mother was bp, too, & it seems to have a high correlation with family members who have it.

Also, something that helped me believe the dx was that as soon as I got on the drugs for bp, I felt so much better. The depression lifted & didn't return after about 6 weeks, which is what would happen on the AD's.--Suzy

Oh, also, I forgot to mention that I think a psychiatrist would be better for you in dealing with medications. My GP was the one who kept treating me for depression for years & didn't catch on to the bp thing until I came in obviously in a mixed episode. Good luck.--Suzy

agreed. a Pdoc is much better for us with meds.......i was treated for years by a "plain" doc and he meant well.......but boy is my brain screwed........

I'm so glad things have turned around for you Ouch. That's totally awesome!

I hope that your good mood continues.

Hugs

thanks... My psychologist said I really needed to see a psychiatrist, so she said she would try to get me one quickly...

I'm actually terrified of meds. I have been off meds for 4 weeks, but less than a week ago I decided to try St. John's wort because I was SO extremely depressed. Today I am actually feeling 'normal' whatever that is for me right now. but, I got bruises all over, so obviously the st. john's wort is doing something weird. So, I have decided to stop it. tonight i will not take anything - terrified but also scared to continue messing around with my brain - i only have 1

Do you think the St. John's Wort is causing the bruises?
That sounds so weird.
You need to be on something for awhile until your brain can function properly. If your brain is chemically imbalanced then you need to stay on something.
I hope that you reconsider.
Best of luck.
Hugs,
Boopers

I don't know what to do - feel very lost. don't like the psychiatrist I was seeing and my g.p. is not very understanding - she'll give me a long lecture on the fact that I decided to go off meds in the 1st place. feel lost...