I would much rather stay in bed..

So, I'm not dealing with everything too well.

But there is nothing really wrong...

I can't seem to shake this depression tho.

I hide away in my bed because it is so much easier then getting up and dealing with the real world.

I feel ashamed I am letting my kids down

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I am so sorry you are experience this level of depression. I understand how debilitating it feels. It is especially terrible when, as you said, there's really nothing wrong.
Could it be there's really nothing right, instead? Just a different way to look at the issue in hopes for realization or an epiphany. It works for me sometimes.

I know it must be hard feeling like you are letting your kids down. I can't relate because I don't have children, but I understand. How old are your kids? Are they old enough to understand mental health issues such as depression and the symptoms they come along with?
It could be a good talk to have with them if they are old enough because there could be more understanding from both sides. Maybe you're not letting them down. Maybe you and your kids can use each other for support during the darkness of this time.

I hope you begin to find some relief. Let me know if you'd like to talk about anything. PM me anytime.

One blunt therapist (one of the two) and
including cluster migraines in addition to depression -- I'd want to remain in bed, too (especially after meeting with that T).

Do you have those willing to help out in the kind of practical ways that would allow you to spend more of your limited energies on your children?

I find that depression doesn't need some external reason it just happens to me. Of course the stress it in turn causes makes it worse. Sounds like you could use some practical help around the house to reduce some of the guilt and stress if possible as Rohag suggested.

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Things ae right tho, I have a good job, beautiful children, a house, I am so lucky in so many ways... Yet I feel so terrible ;(

My kids are only young under 10, so they don't understand too well...

I don't know what to say except I feel so low a lot of the time. :-(

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That is true rohag, I haven't gone back to that T. But I know I need to...

My partner helps out a lot practically. But after full time work and being sick I just have nothing to spare :-(

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I don't know what other practical help would work

I'm in such a bad place

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why not work part time?

Money... Is the answer to that question... My partner has some debts that I am trying to pay off so it doesn't effect the household

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Depression sucks ;( I want to run away from everything...

It's so hard...

I have a session with my T end of this week and i just want to cancel I hate that I feel this way

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I met a former aide from a convalescent home where my mother was, and seen this lady at Walmart. I had just gotten out of the hospital myself. She wanted to know why..?? I told her I was in for depression. She said "what are you depressed about?" I couldn't answer, as she would never understand. You just wake up with depression, as it just happens, like a serious mood change.
At least here, we all know how it is with ourselves.
Get better soon.

Yeah. It's mostly pointless to explain depression to people who have never had it. I find I just end up feeling more depressed, and usually heaps of anger on top of it.
Hang in there, catastrophic. I don't know what I can say that will help you; I know how debilitating depression can be. All I can say is, hang in there, and just keep coming here and talking about it.

Who wouldn't??? Schootch over.

Hi catastrophic
It would be good to hear more about your work.
It sounds like you are at both ends of a broken elastic band, and staying in bed stops it from snapping.
Is your employer aware of your depression?
Are they supportive?
Also, I often feel like I let my kids down, because I get so preoccupied with stuff in my head, and then seek time alone.
If this was a visible physical ailment, you would feel more understood, and people understand things they can see more, I think.
Depression feels real, but sufferers feel a fake in the eyes of others.

The stigma we fear stsrts with the silence surrounding mental illness.
My mum had severe PND after having me. I only found out a few years ago, from my dad, in my forties!
I wish I had known earlier.

What I'm trying to say is.... your children will understand the facts you tell them, but that there is a cure.
Besides, guilt is ever present for lots of parents, that's why toys 'r' us do so well!
I know I am a guilty parent also.

I work in a hospital five days a week - 7am to 4pm (sometimes to 6pm)... A bit of a stressful job but I love it, worked really hard to get to where I am.

Employer doesn't know anything. When I have days that I can't get out of bed I blame my migraines, they know about them - and at least that is a physical pain that they can see if that makes sense.

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Yes that makes sense.
It may take some pressure off you if you can seek support from someone at work, especially your manager, or someone in the hospital staff suppory system, if thete is one, then, at leadt it will be documented, if your work suffers. I work for NHS, in uk, and there is a confidential service for staff.
I undetstand you don'want to jeapardise your job, but depression is so common in caring professions.
I don't know your work set up, but may be worth finding support. You may be pleasantly surprised.
Hope that helps.

You're not alone catastrophic. I retreat to my bed at 5 p.m. every day because I don't want to face the world anymore. I also usually wake up at 3 a.m. but don't actually get out bed until 7:45 a.m. or so. Being in bed seems so much easier than facing the world. Sounds like you're making a pretty good showing if you're able to hold down a full-time job. I can't seem to work at all and am stuck home isolating much of the day.

I have to work - ive always been the one the family can rely on. And that means me working even if it is detrimental to my own health ...