[yayme]

I am new here. I have been battling depression and anxiety since I was a teenager. I've been on zoloft for a couple of years. When I take my medicine regularly, I feel pretty good.
A couple of weeks ago I went to the doctor to get a Rx refill for all my meds (i have diabetes and high blood pressure too). I met with a new doctor who went on to tell me that I have no reason to be depressed and that I should look in the mirror and thank God everyday for my blessings. I went to the dr. feeling good and left out feeling bad. I began to wonder if my depression was all in my head (funny cause it sort of is...)
I stupidly stopped taking everything. Today was the final straw. I called in to work sick and stayed in bed all day. When I got up, I was still very tired and still wanted to stay in bed. I can't describe the crazy thoughts that have been going through my head. Finally, I come across this site. I feel motivated to get back on track with my meds.
I feel stuck because low income and no insurance prevents me from seeking the kind of help I know I need. I'm so uncomfortable around new people (esp. drs). But I need to get better because I feel like I'm cheating my family when I am like this.
I feel like I'm in this deep dark hole. If I'm not careful and don't fight this, I might get too comfortable there. Sometimes it seems easier to just ... but there is that part of me that wants to fight this.
Anyway, thanks to whoever set this forum up because I don't feel so alone.

[Boopers]

Oh Yayme,
I would like to welcome you to PC.

Wow, what a stupid doctor. I hope you never go back to him.
He should have never said that to you.
Yes, you are right. It is in our head. Our brain to be exact. When we have depression, it's because we are chemically imbalanced.
I, too have fought depression since I was 14. I am now 52. I have had severe depression for most of my life. I am now on two different ant-depressants and I can't tell you what a difference it makes.
Before, I would turn off the phone, close the curtains and lock the doors. I stayed in bed most of the time. I didn't want to see anyone or talk to anyone. Not even my family.
Now, I am so much better. I have hope again.
I do hope that you continue with your anti-depressants and remember, that sometimes, they don't work or quit working and you have to try a different one. So, if you start taking them again and don't feel a change in your outlook, then it's time for a change.
I wish you all the best and you can pm me anytime.
I do understand how you feel.
Hugs,
Boopers

Welcome ((Yayme)), I'm sorry you were met by a very unsympathetic doctor. Depression is a "real" experience, no matter the cause. Even if it was all in your head, that needs attention and just being told to "Look in the mirror and thank god" isn't use!!.

I would not just stop taking medication. I understand the feelings of want to "duvet dive" its not a nice place to be. I'm glad you found this place and I'm sure your get a lot of support,and I hope you get to change your doctor also!!

Best wishes.

[Fuzzybear]

Welcome yayme ....I'm so sorry you saw such an incompetent doctor, unfortunately there are quite a few of them around.

You've found a good place here....Keep fighting hon!

Take care,
Fuzzy

[yayme]

Thanks for the encouragement. I finally answered the phone today! My friend knows about my depression, but she doesn't quite understand. It is comforting to find someone who does. Thanks again.

[yayme]

Needed the hug. Thanks

[yayme]

Thanks, fuzzy. And the fight continues!!

[Soidhonia]

Hello and welcom to Psych Central. I dont think your Dr should have said that to you since you have a mental health disorder. I feel like he was out of line and unprofessional, I hope you dont take too much to heart. You need to get a NEW Dr if possible. There is a chat today at 2:30 today with Dr Wylie I hope you can make the chat and meet some of the regulars here at PC. I hope the best for you take care Soidhonia

[liz_c]

Hello Yayme,

A doctor once told me to try going off my meds; I flat out said NO because being on my meds , Zoloft to be exact, helped change my life too much. I was stunned that he said that to me. He was just out of medical school and inexperienced, but the experienced will give dumb advice too. There was a time I stopped taking my zoloft because I was out of work and could not afford it; I ended up in the hospital. Never stop taking your meds!

Right now I am going through unemployment once again and will have to use patient assistance to pay for my med. All makers of meds have Patient Assistance programs to help you pay. Just go the the makers or medicine (i.e. zoloft.com) website and download the form and take it to your MD. You will complete most of the information. And most makers will give you a 90-day supply of daily doses that you would take for about $30.00.

If you have questions, just want to talk, or need any advice, please send me an email.

[leonora]

Dear Yayme,
Keep your chin up it's hard and you will get through it. I know exactly what you are going through as I am at that awful stage myself at the moment.

Take care and I will say a prayer for you !

Big hugs

Leonora