Just wanna scream from frustration

My depression is making me not want to do anything. I made myself sweep and vacuum my floors but my anxiety and perfectionism makes me feel like it's never clean enough. I feel like I spend half my day cleaning and it's beer clean enough. Admittedly I try to please others like my dad when he comes over to make sure everything is clean.
I just wanna scream out of frustration because I'm never happy.

This must be extremely horrible to have to deal with, I too am a total perfectionist which often leaves me feeling that nothing I do is ever good enough, and seem to need constant support and praise to feel remotely happy about any of it. I guess it's important to remember that nobody is perfect, and that actually we always see our own work differently to other people do.

And if you feel like screaming, then do! I always think a good scream helps when I feel like that. I scream into my pillow and have almost a temper tantrum like a child on the bed screaming lol. sometimes punching the pillows while screaming helps too

Maybe it would be a good idea to take a break from your house and your cleaning, and just go for a walk, get some fresh and clear and calm your mind a bit.

Well, those words capture my thoughts and feelings exactly...I'm stuck in a rut and I don't see any way out of it...I screamed several times when I was driving around yesterday. It only helped for a split second...but for that second, it felt great.

I wish you well in your fight against this terrible affliction.

I'm also dealing with an eating disorder and wanting to lose weight mostly for my health because it hurts to walk ad move and I hve sleep apnea so I'm very tired all the time. I was doing dishes today and just felt like slamming cupboard doors, smashing dishes etc but I can't because I have a 4 year old. I had to settle for crying in the locked bathroom.