[Sadley]

Hi...I'm just really struggling today...I am so sad that I can't do much of anything. I couldn't eat yesterday because I was so sad. I have a girlfriend who loves me and we just moved into a house together, but I just can't be happy. I don't even know why anymore...I'll try really hard to be happy but it will always just catch up to me that I am overwhelmingly sad and I want to die. I wish I was a better person, but I can't be that person. I've been seeing a therapist for a couple years, I know it's not her fault I'm not improving, no one can help me. I've tried a lot of meds before but nothing works on me. I feel doomed and I can't bare the pain I feel. It's even worse when my girlfriend wants me to talk about it and I just don't say anything because I would say "I don't know" but she doesn't want to hear that, so I just stay silent. My life is as good as over.

[atomicc]

I'm sorry you're struggling so much Sadley It is hard when it it feels like you've tried everything and it doesn't work. Hang in there, you are much stronger than you think you are

[Rohag]

Sadley, you have held on for some time despite the agony. Do you have an idea of what things have served to keep you going?

[Sadley]

Originally Posted by Rohag

Sadley, you have held on for some time despite the agony. Do you have an idea of what things have served to keep you going?

Well I have thought about suicide for a very long time, every day, usually. I was just about at the end but then at the last minute I met my girlfriend. She is everything to me, and we've had a lot of good times but I still get depressed. She gets really upset with me when I get like this, but she still says that's she'll be with me to the end. She's really all I live for, I know that's not really healthy for me or her. Things are going ok, and I don't even know why I'm depressed. I just feel down about myself and I don't really like myself that much. My depression takes all the fun out of everything and it makes my girlfriend sad because she feels like she isn't being a good girlfriend to me or something. But it's not her fault at all.