[themusikhurts]

For anyone who knows, I have myself a predicament with this relationship I am in. I am very stressed and feel like my life is spinning out of control. I have issues eating and keeping it in... this used to be my way of control. But recently, I even lack that control. I am still doing what I have always done, but am gaining weight... I am sooo mad at myself and feel like I have gained way too much weight. I am 5'5" and used to weigh 98-102 lbs.... now... I weigh a steady 128, 129. If I get to 130... I do not know what I will do... I exersise like crazy and eat only healthy stuff... and rarely keep anything in me... I have been doing this for years... what is changing??? Is it because of the relationship junk? Anyone have any suggestions? Well, that's all really. I hope everyone is doing well...
Thanks,
Mu$ik
themusikSTILLhurts

[EJ711]

Musik,

I don't know a lot about this topic, but do you think your body is onto your trick of purging?

EJ

[Direction]

I'm not an expert either, but watch some close struggle with food with this...

From what I recall binging/purging actual food tended to add weight.

Please be carefull, your first set off numbers is about where she was, and she was looking a bit like a skeleton.

[themusikhurts]

thanks guys.
EJ... i have done this for about four years now... do you think that it'd just now be changing? i really don't know.
direction... same thing, would i just now start gaining weight... after four years? i mean, maybe. but unlikely to me. i am sorry to hear that about your friend... i definately do not look like a skeleton now...
thanks for the help though...
=) it's really appreciated.

[Direction]

I guess I would look at what you are eating. You may have restricted your caloric intake to the point of slowing down your metabolism.

By the way stress can swing you either direction. Dealing with stress - I dropped 18% of my weight and then gained 36% back in a matter of 6 months.

Dealing with a lot of stress now and dropped 10% of my weight. I think it can go either way.

Maybe now would be a good time for a physical? Check to see if all the vitals are working as they should B/P cycle really can mess with the organs.

[themusikhurts]

ok. thank you. i will definately check in to that. and actually... i have held in some food today... i ate some carrots and have kept it in and really feel a little better... not about the weight, but about everything in general... i think it will be ok. thanks again. have a wonderful day.