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Hi,
I am not sure it is just about reasoning. In my case, it is a about values, which imply both, intellectual consideration and affection. It is related to education and self- education, early and late influences. My late influence was heroes from the American Disability Movement including the great Justin Dart. Those people taught me about human dignity and you cannot be just the same once they produced an impact on you. There are other influences, such as my father and some of his cousins. They injected the pride of being a worker in me. The cousins were Communists and were made illegally prisoners and tortured by the military here. One of them is a desaparecido. Another one died early this year. I could see what repetitive torture did to him. When I was a kid people around me, including teachers and neighbors, had ideals. People put their own interest in second place and there was more happiness because there was meaning. This is something you cannot take out of your mind even when you feel you are the fattest or the ugliest in the room.
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yeah, I think the environment is very important. I also noticed that my mood becomes a lot more stable when I am on the countryside. it's not only because of the beautiful landscape but people think and live slightly differently. I think I spend a lot of time in a pretty much toxic environment. where there is lots of judgement and competition.
it's hard to be home sit on the sofa and be proud of what I have accomplished because I know from outside that it is never enough. so this part of life everybody needs to feel good is basically taken away. and I feel never good enough. because there are so insane standards. of course it is my own problem that I cannot deal with it. I wish I had a group of people I belong to and can identify with. but losing that is a part of my crisis. my therapy seems to be going slowly. I wonder what I can do to make myself feel less pessimistic about myself. so I know what kind of thoughts drive me mad. but what happens next? |
#53
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You are totally right. Countryside is much better in many regards
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Clara Hope is definitely not the same thing as optimism. It is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out. Vaclav Havel |
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"I'm gonna kick the darkness, til it bleeds daylight" - U2 Schizoaffective disorder/mood disorder with psychotic features (depending on who you ask), OCD. Seroquel 300mg a day and 25mg prn Lamictal 400mg a day Neurontin 1200mg a day Zoloft 300mg a day Cymbalta 60mg a day Nuvigil 325mg a day Ativan .5 prn Prazosin (for nightmares) 4mg a day ![]() Additional dx: cluster migraines, celiac, hypothyroid, anemia, gyno issues and the list goes on...... |
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