never ending tears...

Day after day, after day, after day.... all I do is cry.

I am sending you a hug, hang on in there

Hi Invisible, I'm sorry you're feeling like this
Sometimes it's hard to see things being any different, but if you want to share a little more of what's going on for you maybe we can help a little with things.
You don't have to be alone with this, we're here for you.

Alison

Thank you Alison. I can't undo what's been done. I've been living alone too long and I don't make good choices anymore. The only thing I had that gave me any pleasure was my home in the country and my horses, but now I sold it and everything is over. My horses, my home, my life. Over. I have 67 days.

Are you the one who posted about your family not helping in your situation? And losing your home and horses after 37 years? If so that is a huge loss and will take some time to recover from. That is like a death or divorce.

Hi Invisible, you must be feeling a lot of grief right now, and I can imagine it must be really hard for you I'm sorry
And just like zinco said it is bound to take time to "come to terms" with something like this. So while cryings OK, natural, unavoidable, and you probably are going to need to do some (a lot of) that, just make sure you're reaching out for support as well. It's a lot to hold in/hold on to on your own.
And please don't blame yourself for any of this, if you didn't make good choices, then they were the best choices you could make at the time, under the circumstances. It sounds like you had a lot going on for you/a lot to deal with and when we're under pressure/stressed depressed we probably are going to make some bad decisions, it's not your fault.
And it may not help to hear this right now but..........as for your horses, your home, your life, everything over...........well we're more going to be talking about another chapter in your life. It probably seems very bleak right now, and it won't be like before but that's not to say that as some time passes/the pain heals a bit, that it can't still be something really meaningful in other ways.
So keep on talking whenever you want/need to, we're here for you, whether it may help just talking, sharing the load, letting it out, whether we can give you caring, understanding or support........you're not alone.

Alison

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Invisible2Everyone, hugs coming your way.