[Leahlee]

This is my first forum post, so I don't know exactly what to write but here goes. I hate who I have become. I don't know how to fix me. I cry all the time. I can't talk to anyone about it because then I would be going backwards again. I have anger built up and it comes out on the people I love. I hate that. I want to scream. I'm so tired of who I am at this point. I have been on everything, can't do that again. My mind is racing and nothing makes sense when I try to put it into words. For God's sake I am a mother and a wife, I have responsibilities. Why can't I get it together? The facade is wearing thin.

hi there Leahlee,

I'm sorry you're feeling so unhappy and frustrated.

Are you seeing a therapist to get the help with your emotions that you want and deserve?

[Leahlee]

I haven't found a therapist in my area who just doesn't want to push pills on me. I have had that for almost 8 years. I am still looking though. And, thank you!

the more you post here, the more support you will get. someone will come along with a similiar circumstance and you will be surprised how much you will learn.......i find it remarkable that someone here usually feels as i do at any given time.........good luck, pat

hi leahlee

i was just posting a very similar story to you and i read this afterwards.

i too am a mother. i'm on prozac, itdoesn't work. i'mgoing to docs tomorrow. the time has come in my life to lose or drop the baggage that has weighed me down for years. my kids are teens, and fortunately they're supportive, my hubby tries.I'VE WORN A MASK FOR SO MANY YEARS, IT'S MY TIME TO LET GO AND TRY TO PUT A REAL SMILE ON MY FACE. we could try and do it together.

the only thing to get me through is this site. and i'm always on it - morning noon and night. don't sleep well. it has helped me so much over the last couple of weeks and you've done the right thing joining.

I'VE MET SOME LOVELY PEOPLE IN HERE, PEOPLE I THINK I WILL STAY IN CONTACT WITH FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE. I HOPE YOU DO TO.

PLEASE TAKE CARE pm me any time

JINNYANN

SMILE THROUGH THE RAIN AND YOU'LL FIND YOUR RAINBOW

am i psychic or what??????

((((((Leahlee)))))))