[Fuzzybear]

I'm so tired of people I cared about just vanishing
(on another website)
Is it ever worth trusting anyone?

I was abandoned by multiple au pairs under the age of 5 and only one of them didn't abuse me

[Fuzzybear]

And why can't I just vanish from this planet in a puff of smoke like people just vanish from my life with no explanation that makes the slightest bit of sense

[Agentfyre]

I don't know exactly what you're experiencing because I don't know what kind of online relationship you had with the people in question, or how much you trusted them. But people online come and go, that's the nature of online life. And that can happen in day-to-day life as well, but far less often. It's good to have support here, as any support is good support, but the temporary nature of the internet also means that it's vital to build support in your day-to-day life as well.

As for yourself vanishing... No one wants you to vanish. And I suspect that you yourself don't truly want to as well. I know what it's like to want the suffering to end, and sometimes I really wish I could just let go... But at the same time, I can't. As bad as things are, I WANT to have hope, hope that something good will come from all this. And even when I don't feel that hope, I know I at least WANT that hope. Sometimes, that's all it takes to hold on. It's like hanging by the thinnest thread.

You're not alone. And you offer us so much here. You do great things just by offering us yourself.

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I'm so tired of people I cared about just vanishing
(on another website)
Is it ever worth trusting anyone?

I was abandoned by multiple au pairs under the age of 5 and only one of them didn't abuse me

I have to admit I am one of those types of people who sometimes vanishes from websites on the internet. I've had 5 YouTube channels, including the two I have now. The first 3 I abruptly closed when something made me angry. I still have a tendency to want to do that. But, being aware of it now, I am more in control than I used to be. It is difficult when someone you've come to rely on just suddenly vanishes... even if it's just someone you've known on-line. Actually, I know I have closer relationships with some on-line friends than I do with anyone IRL. IRL, I tend not to get along with people all that well. So I pretty-much try to just keep to myself.

[Frankbtl]

Hi Fuzzy, I'm sorry you've lost some people who mattered to you. I can imagine you're wondering what the point is of caring/of starting to care again/of sharing or investing yourself in others at times??? But they were still part of your life and nothing can take that away from you, what you had with them still mattered/matters even if they are no longer around. And you can take comfort from that, you can still feel good about the relationship you had with them.
Unfortunately when you're connecting with people on-line/through a web site, lot of things that may shorten that connection e.g. their problems with the web site or others on there.........still just try to take what you can from those connections..........and make the most of those/new/different relationships???
And I can imagine lots of other people in your life, even online, who still/do/will care about you so much because as we all know you are a really caring person.
And please don't vanish from here .
You matter so much, and I'm sure you've helped so many people in so many ways. You are always going to be important to people on here.
And if you want to talk about the abuse (about anything!!) then we're here for you too. I know it's got to be really hard for you, but you're not on your own

Alison

[Clara22]

Hi Fuzzy,
I feel your pain. I am feeling like a whole inside as I could see how little some people (relatives) care about me, really. Also, that particularly one of them approaches me to take advantage of. It is very, very sad.

[Clara22]

But sorry for sending my message above because it was unfinished. I wanted to say that when I read your post I thought "I hope Fuzzy does not withdraw from this forum. We need you here

[waterknob1234]

Hi Fuzzybear. I am so sorry for your pain. I have been there both on the internet, but more so IRL. I remember I had a best friend who lived across the street from me for 10 years. When she moved I was heartbroken. I caught up with her on facebook. But it's not the same because I don't trust sharing private stuff on facebook. It hurts to loose people you grow close to. But please Fuzzy, don't disappear. you are a wonderful person, and as Clara said, we need you here. We love you and you are always so helpful and supportive to the rest of us. Love and hugs coming your way.

[Idiot17]

Oh I know.... ((((((fuzzybear))))))

[Momentofclarity]

hugs for you.

[dandylin]

I can relate fbear. (I think that's what I'll call you now) I would sometimes like to vanish too. Well, I'm pretty much invisible anyway.
You are such a positive influence here. I look forward to your posts and affirmations every day. You matter to me