Uuuuuuuugh!!!

So August was one of the most drama filled months for me. I've been in a relationship for 2.5 years & it came to an end last Thursday. My gf told me in the beginning of August that she needed space because our relationship had been less than perfect. She said that i had been distant & often neglected her for my friends for the past couple of months. I am guilty in that regard, but I thought that this came from a place of deep jealousy and insecurity, as we've both struggled with these things throughout the relationship. Coincidentally, she said she needed space after I found her texting another female about questionable things. Although I didn't agree with it, I tried to give her the space she needed. When I would refrain from texting or calling her, she would text me and say **** like "so we're really over," and "do you miss me at all?" Moving forward, things got worse and worse. We were off the break briefly, had sex, and then she asked me for $220 to fund her trip which she took this weekend. Idk if any of that is related but it seemed that way to me. Then, to make matters worse, she was hugged up with another girl in pictures on FB, but denies that they're in a relationship. I can't say that I've been the best girlfriend for every day we were together, but all of this is so extreme! It's almost as if she's deliberately trying to hurt me. Then she said that I am a narcissist and I never took up for her against my friends. So that warrants all your disrespect and hurting me relentlessly???? What's your take on this, guys? I'm trying not to let this thing get me down but it's hard. I haven't been eating much and my sleep schedule is changing. Plus, I can't afford to let this get in the way of school. It's just so much!

Anyways, thoughts, comments, anything?
Thanx for reading.

Hello, Acj5114. This concerns me:
I'm no good with relationship issues, but these are indications all the drama is working against your system and pushing you into a depressive episode.

Does your situation permit putting some healthy space between you and the interactions causing the most turmoil?

Best wishes for school success!

Sounds like a really tough month. I'm sorry it went so badly.
Sometimes relationships don't work out. It doesn't mean it doesn't sick when they end, but it sounds like she wasn't really respecting it recently. It also slings a bit like she was testing, though I don't know if you would have been able to pass no matter what (she might have likely been looking for an "excuse" to end it, so even if you did try to contact her, she would have been upset because you were not respecting her space? I may totally be reading into that, as I don't know her our you beyond what you posted, but going on what I have experienced in the past)...
if you really think you guys could/should work out, then perhaps confront her on her behavior, take responsibility for your own, and tell her how you feel through all this? However be prepared for her not wanting top talk, or really put anything else into it.
good luck either way. Sounds like a tight spot.

You're right. I can't deny that these are symptoms of an episode. & luckily, yes. I am no longer with her and we don't live together anymore so perhaps this'll give me the time I need to work on myself & form healthier relationships.
I just hope I have the strength to stop the situation from affecting every aspect of my life because I know it's not the end of the world. It just feels like it.

It seemed like she was testing me but there was no way for me to pass. I keep playing back the last couple of months in my head thinking about what I could've done better. Idk though, maybe it has nothing to do with me, because I changed my actions dramatically just to show her I cared & she still carried on with her actions.

it likely had nothing to do with you and everything to do with her. I had a similar situation with my ex-wife, and there was nothing I could have done to change the outcome (I tried several times). We are friends now though, and I see how I would have been going nuts trying to make things work with her... it's a tough situation. Relationship endings are difficult and I am sorry you are going through this now. It's ok to be sad and grieve and be angry and whatever other emotions come up...