im confused an im becoming more and more depressed.

Hi! I just want to ask for some advices because clearly i dont have anyone else to talk to who might actually understand me. I have a complete family but i think it is slowly becoming to be a dysfunctional one. Parents tend to quarrel quite often about some stupid things. They were like telling things to me against each other. Of course I dont want to pick a side between them and i am really getting fed up of all these nonsense dramas. Situations like this makes me want to leave them. Another problem I have is that im25 and I dont have a job. I was originally planning of going abroad to study with a friend, but my friend backs out and I am not sure If i can make it alone out therr knowing the weakness I have in me. I dont have a job because I really dont want to be an employee. I just dont like having a fixed schedule. Something like that. Im really confused about the purpose of my life in this world. Im getting old and yet i still dont have plans on what to do with my life. i have a boyfriend and he always tells me that everythings gonna be fine but i dont think so. I know i really have to do something but i dont know what it ia. these cofusions leads me to being more and more depressed. Please help me. Thankyou

Have you had a therapist? Talking with a T about your life and what direction you want to go might be an option.

Remember that worrying about the future will always prevent you from living in the present. The present is the only place you can grow, learn, and develop. Also, keep reminding yourself how boring and tedious life would be if you knew the future. There would be no excitement. Just go with the flow.