[rukspc]

Things have been so rough that after long work days, I often take the long way home and drive out into the countryside late at night to clear my mind. Sometimes I drive in silence or just turn on some ballads. I drive for miles yet I feel so lame and lonely. It's so hard to break out of this rut I'm in.. I just can't deal with the uncomfortable feelings and my emotions are everywhere. I've almost fallen asleep behind the wheel a few times because of how exhausted I am. It's gotten to the point where I've cried almost every day. My depression feels strong in those moments and I want to call someone or cry on someone's shoulder but I don't want to be a burden.

My rant for the evening. :/

[Yoda]

[Curupira]

I am married. And lately (lots of stress) I need time to myself. I do puzzles . The one great thing that I learned from him is, take the time you need and then give your heat to the things that are important.

Take the drive, clear your head. Them get back to what matters

[SimonSays1]

I take long walks. Mostly 2 miles walks in the evening. Those help me somewhat.

[Frankbtl]

Hi rukspc, I'm sorry that things are so hard for you
But are you sure other people would see it as a burden if you were to call, if you were to cry on their shoulder?
Or might they want to know if/when you're hurting, might they want to be there for you. Being there for someone really doesn't have to be a burden at all. Depending on the person they might see it as a privilege that you've gone to them when you need someone. So maybe have a bit more of a think about who you might like to call in those times??
And almost falling asleep at the wheel........well you know you need to be parking up a bit more on drives, right? Even if you say to yourself when setting out "I'll park up after half an hour"???
Are the drives actually helping though or are they maybe more part of the cycle of feelings?? If they are helping, great, but if they aren't helping as much or there are other things you might be able to do to help more.........maybe worth thinking about???
Do you think maybe it would help to write down some of the feelings you're struggling with as if you were calling someone to talk??? Just thinking it might help you come closer to "letting them out", expressing them to someone or getting help with them.............
Although you can talk to us as well, I'm sure a lot of us can empathise with the way you're feeling, offer you that "shoulder to cry on" and maybe give you some support in moving away from/through that.

Alison

[Detia]

I love going for late night drives, or a walk song a nice neighborhood. Gives me the idea that I could be free and go anywhere. That's a really crappy feeling to go through though. Please drive safely.