[GenCat]

I don't know how long I've actually had depression but I started to be unhappy in my life about 6 or 7 years ago. Now, after a couple severe losses and regained my somewhat life, this last loss it seems I am really stuck. My family knows I'm not myself and not happy and miserable and when they ask me questions like what do I want to do? What makes me happy? Why I stay stuck? I cry because I can only answer I don't know, I don't remember what staying happy feels like and loving your life. My mom even thinks its so bad I need to go into the hospital again but I'm so past feeling emotions I just say I'm fine. My mother asks me what she can do and when I tell her nothing can make me happy its like she doesn't believe me, when really I've been so lost I forgot I was lost and where I was suppose to go and forgot who I was. Can people with depression ever find a happy life ahead of them? I thought I had but I am back to where I was, maybe I thought I was better but now with my recent loss I am more lost now and now more aware of it.

My heart goes out to you.

I am so sorry that you are feeling this way.

I can relate as I functioned by pushing aside my emotions and taking care of others for so long I forgot how to feel and who I was.

I am trying to recover not by trying to look to the past and remember what made me happy but by focusing on the present and trying to try things again to see what makes me happy now.

I hope that you find happiness again.

I wish you the best.

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[Fuzzybear]