I HATE MY FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!
Why do I open myself up to those ******* idiots!!!????!!
It happens EVERYTIME!!! NEVER AGAIN!!! I'm over them already! I'm not even talking to them on the phone anymore. I've had enough of this ********!

[Direction]

Some space is probably good right now...

Maybe a lot of time and space...

You always have us to vent to...

[Soidhonia]

Hello Jax.
I am sorry that you are hurting at this time. Take care of yourself Soidhonia

Thank you, I appreciate your responses. Yes, as much space as possible-an infinite amount of space would be perfect.
~are they gone yet?
(((((((Direction)))))))
((((((((Soidhonia)))))))))

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR! I need a punching bag!

[Direction]

Punching bag might not be a bad idea...

[Fuzzybear]

I'm sorry! And I completely understand!!!!!!! GGGGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!

Jax

((((((((Fuzzybear)))))))) I'm sorry you understand because that means you're going through the same crap. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR on your behalf. grrrrrr grrrrrrrrr grrrrrrrrrrrr

[Talulah]

Jax
I am soooooo there with you. seriously.i'm.over.mine.too.done.and.closing.the.book.

((((((Talulah)))))) GRRRRRRRRRRR on your behalf too.

[desperado]

Jax, I hate my family too.

I have cut them out of my life - all of them - except for one cousin. It is a relief that I don't see or bother w/ them anymore. May they rot in hell for what they have done to me.

[Pomegranate]

Understand completely!! I'm old enough to be a grandmother, yet I still fall victim to my mother's crap. She is dysfunctional, manipulative and just plain mean and nasty, yet I will find myself getting caught in her web. I've gone years without contact with her, then for some reason it's like I've forgotten everything I know about her - I guess as a "child" my craving for acceptance and love from her never ends. I will find myself right back into the same pain, depression and sick relationship as where I last left off with her.

At least now I have learned to not beat myself up when I do it. I forgive myself and move on. Society makes us so vulnerable to the message that if one does not get along with one's family it must be YOUR fault, not theirs (especially around Christmas!!). Not true. As a therapist of mine once pointed out, it's the weakest link in a chain that breaks.

In other words, the most healthy person in a family may very well be the one to present as "sick" or "crazy." One thing that always struck me in my many hospitals stays was how often the family members coming to visit often seemed or acted crazier than the patient in the hospital.

Give yourself a big hug (((Jax))) and move on. Even if you get caught up in your family's dysfunction again, that's okay. As long as you realize they are sick and you need to love and protect yourself from them. Take care.