[Alone91]

I've posted alot about this but it's really bothering me. What's better, having a friend that makes you feel like a worthless waste of space, or feeling worthless because you have no friends?

I've been having a really hard time lately my best friend died 9 years ago, I lost all of my other friends shortly after, I think it was just too hard to be together without her. I made a new friend, but she met this guy online who refused to meet me because he saw a text I sent wishing that I was dead. I was so hurt with the fact that my best friend could be with someone who treated me like that, and I couldn't let the pain go. She said I was a horrible friend because I told him how he made me feel (which I was told was not ok) and I wouldn't support her being with him. She said that she didn't know what to say to me and that she needed some time. That was months ago. Even though she made me feel worthless, I feel that I should beg her for forgiveness. Was I wrong? Am I a horrible person? Which is the better option?

[Curupira]

Making friends while depressed is hard, really hard. I am so sorry for your loss, and I am sorry that the emotional investment you made into this person backfired.

Only you can decide if this is a friendship worth holding onto. But if it helps here is a checklist I use when making decisions about whom to invest my time into since my depression starting.

Am I getting and giving support?
Does this person accept my mental health status and the limitations that come with it?
Is this person bringing calmness or anxiety to my life?

Hope this helps

[TheLastChapter]

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. If it means anything I am going through almost the same thing. The thing that is helping me through it is just getting what I need done throughout the day and trying to not think about it. I cant deal with making the decision to cut it off or not. It hurts too bad and creates way more problems that it solves. I am just going to back off and wait for my best friend to realize that I have been here through the thick and thin while this guy is just another guy. It is just the honeymoon phase right now. And it freaking sucks. But hugs to you