[Idiot17]

I want to finish it off. I want to be gone.

Sorry for posting too much, I guess I just need to say it and here is the only place I can.

[DogTired]

"Posting too much" - is that possible on this site?? Seriously, if posting helps you in ANY way, keep doing it!!! I've been reading your posts and I don't feel like I have any nuggets of wisdom unfortunately, but I can relate to your feelings and you're not alone. Depression is an invader into our souls but no matter how horrible you feel, your TRUE soul is still there even if you can't feel it. It's evident as you reach out to connect with people and try to feel validated and peaceful again. Keep reaching out, keep posting. It might feel futile, but it's a good thing to keep reaching out. Post away. We're reading and feeling your pain.

[flours]

(((((((Idiot17)))))))

I hope you feel better soon!

[Fuzzybear]

[Creative1onder]

What about me..shall I give up too? Cos I feel like I'm battling hard on my own . And its difficult seeing the light and enabling self currently to make changes I want and need.

[Clara22]

I am thinking of you and wishing this to pass quickly

[regretful]

Hold on folks...just hold on. I know that feeling all too well; it led me to a hospitalization about 9 months ago. I won't go back there; I'm holding on - for me, the reasons are my wife and my son...find your reasons to keep on going.

[TheOriginalMe]

Keep hanging on and keep posting. I find that when I tell someone how bad it is, I can hang on for a bit longer. That someone doesn't have to be irl, here is just as good. Take care, stay safe, we care.

[waterknob1234]

Keep posting to us. It helps to talk to people. Hang on, stay safe. You are in my thoughts and hoping this bad feeling passes.

[Creative1onder]

Hard talking to people actually

[Creative1onder]

I have been strong and courageous to have kept going for so long in this battle but how much can one endure before its all too much? Can I keep on keeping on.. Keep trying. Find what's important and that benefits me. Need to make changes but its challenging. No one wants to suffer in silence to feel alone in what they are going through but sometimes talking to others or reaching out for help goes against you, makes things worse. Some people don't realise they need help while others do and try to get it but doesn't work out, or seems impossible. I've tried to get different kinds of help and support but had a lot of negative experiences with others. I hope you can also have strength and courage to keep going and find positive things that help you even though things seem bad currently. Can't rely on others.

[Hellion]

Me to but I have a couple concerts to go to...so I have to wait then after that I will have to find something else I have to do first. Sometimes you have to find what might seem like really stupid pathetic reasons to go on but screw it sometimes its the only way to keep going. At least I find the worrying about hurting others by going through with it only gets me so far.

[Idiot17]

Originally Posted by regretful

Hold on folks...just hold on.
I won't go back there; I'm holding on - for me, the reasons are my wife and my son...find your reasons to keep on going.

That's the thing regretful, I don't have any sort of reason to hold on. No damn reason. My life is based on my job, I can give that up if it means an end to all this.

[Idiot17]

Thanks guys for all your responses. It's nice to see that the world still has considerate all around kind of people.

Hugs to all.