[L0serChyld]

just turned 21 the other day and I was thinking about my high shcool years weren't too bad but weren't too great....I still haven't kissed or even touched a girl and I feel like such a loser. I didnt use the best years of my life to my advantage.

Ever since school ended I've been so ******. All I do is stay home and complain to my friends and I can't do anything no motivation. By the end of this semester I'm going to get kicked out of my uni. I feel so **** because all the weaknesses people can have (weak minded, low physical strength, quiet etc.) I got it. I literally got no strong points and people keep telling me otherwise but I know I don't have many good qualities. I'm been a failure to my parents. I'm an embarrassment to my family. Not looking for sympathy or any of that **** but I just wanna know why I'm so ****ing ******. I'm such a *****. I wish I was never born.

I never learned hard work or giving it all as a kid. My parents kinda spoiled me. I can't even iron my own clothes. And because of this I am entitled and don't really work hard for things. I got dreams but I can't work hard for them. My mum does most things for me still. I'm so ****ing pathetic. IDK what to do. I can't gather the courage to kill myself at times I really don't want to live. I hate my life. It's not that I have it bad because I don't but as a person I feel so unworthy of being on this planet.

I'm a loser.

[Blue_Bird]

Hi there and welcome to PC!

You're not a loser, have you considered therapy? It could be helpful, to have someone to listen from an outside perspective

[waterknob1234]

Hello LOserChyld and welcome to the community. I also would advise therapy. I don't think you are a loser and I don't see you as a failure. I see you as a person going thru a difficult period in your life. I believe underneath all that pain is a bright, wonderful person.

You remind me a little of myself when I was your age in that my parents tried to over shelter me, especially my mom. They meant well but I think the sheltering made it harder for me to get out in the world and face challenges than it would for other people.

Hang in there. I am hoping you will find the help you need to make things better.

[Altered Moment]

The only way to learn to work hard and do things for yourself is to do them. Teach yourself. A little bit at a time and it gets easier and easier.

Of course if you are depressed that is difficult and should be addressed first.

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[Hellion]

Originally Posted by L0serChyld

just turned 21 the other day and I was thinking about my high shcool years weren't too bad but weren't too great....I still haven't kissed or even touched a girl and I feel like such a loser. I didnt use the best years of my life to my advantage.

Ever since school ended I've been so ******. All I do is stay home and complain to my friends and I can't do anything no motivation. By the end of this semester I'm going to get kicked out of my uni. I feel so **** because all the weaknesses people can have (weak minded, low physical strength, quiet etc.) I got it. I literally got no strong points and people keep telling me otherwise but I know I don't have many good qualities. I'm been a failure to my parents. I'm an embarrassment to my family. Not looking for sympathy or any of that **** but I just wanna know why I'm so ****ing ******. I'm such a *****. I wish I was never born.

I never learned hard work or giving it all as a kid. My parents kinda spoiled me. I can't even iron my own clothes. And because of this I am entitled and don't really work hard for things. I got dreams but I can't work hard for them. My mum does most things for me still. I'm so ****ing pathetic. IDK what to do. I can't gather the courage to kill myself at times I really don't want to live. I hate my life. It's not that I have it bad because I don't but as a person I feel so unworthy of being on this planet.

I'm a loser.

All I got to show for myself is a highschool diploma and a few relationships that didn't work out....might as well be a virgin but whatever I've had sex and it was never anything special and none of the relationships worked out so I don't know doesn't feel like any kind of accomplishment. Also though why do clothes need to be ironed? its never even occurred to me to iron laundry so i don't think you should feel like a total failure over that(then again it takes me like 2 days to get a load of laundry done), but yeah I am 25...***** wasn't great when I was 21 either and still isn't. Sort of want to off myself but trying to convince myself I have responsibilities to stick around for and I did win tickets to a concert so I at least want to go to that but its not till the end of the month but even so can't keep that out of my mind so I get that feeling haven't been able to go a day without considering suicide this past month.

sorry I can't really say anything to make you feel better probably but I can relate to some of this...I mean I am on SSi income because I am too mentally f***d to hold a job not exactly the successful first born child my mom wanted.

[Altered Moment]

Yeah I don't think I lived up to my parents expectations. Especially since I have been living with them almost two years now and I am 50. Lots of people don't have the ideal "I was the star quarter back" high school experience.

It don't matter. We have the rest of our lives ahead of us to make what we can of it given our limitations.

[Blitter2014]

The past cannot be changed, but it does not have to define your future....

[written_by]

Be patient and don't give up on yourself. You're still here and there has to be a reason for it. Go out and find that reason.