Depressed

I'm clinically depressed. I feel like...no one really cares. When I see my nurse on Tues, I'm going to ask for a med change. I've been depressed for a long time. No one cares. At least thats how it feels. I live with my mom, brother, and dad. I have thoughts of giving up. I do give up. I have given up. I also have thoughts of dying. I don't think I'd do that. But they're there. I just don't know what to do anymore. Thanks for listening.

Hi starrysky, it sounds like things are really tough for you right now I'm sorry
But well done on trying to push for a change by planning on a medication review. Sometimes it can take plenty of "trial and error" in finding the right medication, but that doesn't mean that it isn't out there.
And as for no-one caring............maybe it's more that the people in your life don't really understand/need a bit more insight if you could try to give them that, maybe they just don't know what to say/do, maybe the depression has numbed you a bit to how they may really feel??
But not knowing them/your situation, what I can say, is that you are going to find plenty of understanding people on here who are going to get how hard it is for you, who are going to care.
So it is really good that you're sharing with us, it can be so much worse/harder to feel alone in the way you're feeling. So make yourself at home, and share as much as you want.
And welcome to PC!!!

Alison

It feels like giving up. Depression does that. No hope, no point in trying, no energy or motivation to try. Change your meds, keep that small spark of hope alive.

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A med change is probably a great idea or at least evaluate dose. 16yrs ago, I had to try soo many antidepress, some did make me feel worse..finally found right cocktail, also therapy can help. Glad you found pc website, it is helpful. ..even just to vent to people who"get it"and we do!! Sometimes, I had to feel positive about even tiny steps-did I take meds today, great. Did I get out of bed-great. Did I shower-great. So be proud of you, for even small things-I know how hard it is whn you feel as though there is no reason to care anymore. We care, don't give up. If you start to feel really bad, please know there are hotlines you can call.

Thanks so much you guys. I really really appreciate your responses.
I really like the idea of giving myself a pat on the back so to speak, about doing even just small things. I'm feeling better now too. Not great, but supported and better. People in my life do care about me, they just have their own lives. And don't always know when I'm hurting.
Thanks for being so supportive. I am talking to my psych nurse this week, and also my therapist. Take care.