depressed but not

“When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us.”– Helen Keller

“Sometimes your joy is the source of your smile, but sometimes your smile can be the source of your joy.”–Thich Nhat Hanh

Do not confuse your path with your destination. Just because its stormy now doesn’t mean that you aren’t headed for sunshine.

I don't know what to do... my parents have taught me such that there's no life outside of a job (not a career, you do whatever that's in demand, and you do job only for money) and now I am beginning to feel like it's the truth. I have no social life.

Pure sciences aren't for me. I cannot be an engineer technically cause I didn't take maths at 10+2 level, so engineering is out of line. Then comes medicine, my psychiatrist told me I can never be a doctor.... so I am stuck... it sucks, to have both your academic and social life destroyed. All I wanted to do was help people and now nobody can help me. Even worse I cannot do a PhD even if I manage to stick with pure sciences... and I don't want to be a scientist, because there's no patient interaction and no quick methods to improve people's lives, which is the core role of medicine.

Any advice?

I think maybe there is too much focus on a job sometimes. Are there activities or hobbies you can try? I find volunteer work very rewarding as well, and I meet people through it.

I like reading about human body and computer programming, but they remind me of the person I could have been.... other than those, I don't have any hobbies. Except that I like reading fiction. Maybe I can be a writer? But my parents are very mentally ill (so am I, not giving a bad name to mental illness) and they won't accept anything 'low standard' ... mom wants me to join the government's administrative unit... and I have no interest in that, I want to pursue a career in (applied) science....

Every successful person has a painful story. Every painful story has a successful ending. Accept the pain and get ready for success.

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Every day is another chance to change your life.

TAKE A QUICK WALK OUTSIDE

Researchers at the University of Essex in the United Kingdom looked at the benefits of taking a walk outside in nature as compared with other therapies for improving mood. They say ‘exercise has also been compared to other established treatment options, such as antidepressants and cognitive behavioral therapy (CBT) programs. Initial findings imply that exercise is equally as effective as both antidepressants and CBT, as no significant differences were reported between the interventions.’ They say that ‘green exercise’ as in a walk in the country or in a park is particularly effective at helping you get out of a bad mood in just a few minutes.

"If one speaks or acts with a pure mind, happiness follows like a shadow."

((((((((( hugs )))))))))

Repeat calming phrases, such as I can deal with this; Relax; One moment at a time; Be here now; I am safe.