Changing Meds

I'm stuck reducing my main anti-depressant because I was always at too high of a dose that was safe. It turns out I needed it reduced to fit a dose that is safe in combination with other meds.

Well I've never been doing well to begin with, but now it's even harder. I'm being given other things to compensate, but a recent change made last week is making things really hard. I guess i'll call my p-doc to see if there's any options.

I guess I'm just writing to say I hate being dependent on so many medications to just be "normal". People avoid me in the mornings and it's kind of an office joke. But the joke is because my meds are not in balance. I can't tell them that I'm just not medicated correctly. Plus I have to deal with just feeling bad and having to act nice.

I'm sick of this hell in my mind. I'm sick of being a slave to my feelings. I just don't have the willpower to get out of it or to use enough therapy techniques to be better.

Sometimes it is not a question of willpower...Depression is a real and debilitating illness. I hate medications too...I long for those days of feeling "normal"...

I know what it is like to not have the mental energy to do the things you know might help. When in a severe depression I do them and they don't make any difference anyway.

At least you are going to work each day. that is huge. I have had periods where every ounce of energy I had went into going to work each day and performing at a high level. After work and weekends I was spent and had to recharge just to do it again. You would think that getting lots of exercise at work and doing a very good job at my foreman duties and making the boss money would be enough to lift me out of it. The fact is it took enormous amounts of psychic energy for me to be able to do it. That was when it was moderate depression. Severe I can't make it to work.

I hope you can get your meds straightened out and feel better enough to use the other tools you have.

Yah, feeling depressed and pretending you're not is the worst.

I'm kind of a broken record about this, but you might want to try "SNAP CLUB" in this thread

http://forums.psychcentral.com/depre...n-escaped.html

It requires no will power and it's actually the thing that worked the best for me by far.

- vital