[Curupira]

I have been absent for a while because I have been in too much physical pain to move. I ended up in the ER last week and after a battery of tests and being sent back to my doctor I have heavy duty pain killers but no clue of what is actually wrong.

So now I have to wait, till the next battery of referrals come in and hope that the specialists see something. My mental health is deteriorating with this, the pain feeds the depression. Last month, I worked out every single day and now I can't walk without holding my stomach and feeling pain in every step.

I know this is my sneaky little hate spiral but I just can't brake out of this space.

[CANDC]

Curupira, sorry you are in so much pain! I work our 5-6 days a week with yoga or yoga like exercises and if I am not able to do them, I feel the tension.

If you tolerate plain yogurt, try some a spoonful and see how you tolerate it without pain or discomfort. Not sure what is causing your pain. If you tolerate the plain yogurt, then try increasing every couple hours to a larger amount up to a normal 8 oz serving. This can make the tummy feel better if any of what you are going through is related to the digestive track.

Thanks for sharing your challenge and keep us updated.

[Curupira]

Thanks CANDC

I honestly don't know why I am in pain either. It is located in the left side of my pelvis which is the same side I had an ectopic pregnancy rupture last year and I wound up getting emergency surgery.

They have run a battery of tests and can't see anything but the area is painful the touch so my diagnostic options are becoming more invasive. The pain is causing the muscles to tense up which causing them to weaken and no contract when I need them to. Hence stomach holding.

Thanks for listening, I just feel frustrated and crazy.

Hugs to you, C.
I sincerely hope that the pain eases up a little. I know how it can become all-encompassing.

[Idiot17]

((((((Curupira))))))

[Rohag]

You're correct - depression will feast on chronic pain.
Thinking of you...

[angelene]

I hope the source can be found and you can get relief from this pain. (((((Curupira)))))

[CANDC]

Originally Posted by Curupira

Thanks CANDC

I honestly don't know why I am in pain either. It is located in the left side of my pelvis which is the same side I had an ectopic pregnancy rupture last year and I wound up getting emergency surgery.

They have run a battery of tests and can't see anything but the area is painful the touch so my diagnostic options are becoming more invasive. The pain is causing the muscles to tense up which causing them to weaken and no contract when I need them to. Hence stomach holding.

Thanks for listening, I just feel frustrated and crazy.

Curupira, sorry, my yogurt suggestion was for other problems! Keep sharing with us how things are

[waterknob1234]

Hi Curupira, I am so sorry you are having so much pain. Pain does feed depression. My depression was so much worse when I was having constant migraines. It is frustrating to hurt and doctors not being able to find the cause of it. I am hoping the doctors can find the cause of the pain soon and be able to treat it. My heart goes out to you.

[Curupira]

Thanks all,

I am still waiting, I cannot call to activate my specialist referral till tomorrow (yay military healthcare!). I am hoping that they can see me quickly but with the holidays coming up I am not holding my breath. I hate having to take narcotics (prescribed) for pain. They make me feel sick and high and non functional. Unfortunately we have exhausted all other pain management options at this point. So I can be sick or I can be in agony. Fun choices.

And I am sorry I am complaining, I am grateful that I even have insurance I am just frustrated and my experience currently is mirroring the lead up to last years emergency surgery that nearly killed me so all my triggers are being hit. I know it is not objective reality, these are different doctors in a different place but I am so scared that they are going to miss something again and that this time it will kill me. And I am crying while typing this because my close call last year really was that close and it could have been avoided if someone had preformed a simple pregnancy test or if the MRI tech had bothered to read my scan correctly.

I see my therapist today so I will be discussing this with her, it just sucks because I was supposed to be moving forward, we were talking about grieving the the loss of that pregnancy finally and now I am back to survival mode.

[Idiot17]

Good luck.
Not complaining....

[Clara22]

I am thinking of you, Curupira. I am writing this from my hospital bed, I have been here since the end of September. Tomorrow, I will have an MRI and then doctors will make a decision. It is hard because some of them want to send me home regardless if I am cured or not. I may have to go to another hospital if they release me in a bad shape. I do not know yet.
I send good vibes to you

[Curupira]

Clara,

I am so sorry you are going through that. I am thinking of you too.

[Curupira]

I had a full meltdown last night,

I have run out of ways to be be proactive with this issue and now my brain is just trying and failing at coping with time+pain. It is really strange to be in a position where there is literally nothing I can do but wait. I have taken every proactive and preparatory step, even my therapist said that I have done everything within my power and that I need to take my meds and accept that this is where I am at for now.

It is so strange, having a complete meltdown: paranoia, delusion, depression, panic etc. while at the same time being fully cognitively aware that these things are happening and yet having no control to interrupt the process. Talk about feeling trapped.

Today I get to call the referral line and try to expedite my specialist appointment so at least for today I have something to do to help myself.

[Curupira]

Quick update:

I have my specialist appointment tomorrow. Happy thoughts and prayers would be appreciated

[Idiot17]

Hope it goes well.....sending positive vibes your way.
(((((Curupira)))))

[Little Jay]

[Curupira]

SO... the specialists aren't sure but they are treating me for an infection. I have to go back in 2 weeks to follow up and see if it worked or if I need further tests.

Here is hoping this works, getting prodded and poked by doctors has left me crying in pain. On the up side the specialists actually treated me with respect and talked to me like I was the expert on my condition. Overall I am grateful.

Thank you for caring

[Idiot17]

Good luck.